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  "PageContent": "My colon cancer and other misadventuresOver the course of 35 rounds of chemotherapy I gradually added songs to this playlist.  Some are dark or sad, but all of them have something in common: they allow me to draw strength and resolve from my emotions.  Many of these songs are my all-time favorites, others I just love for this purpose and they fit the bill somehow either by song title or sentiment.  I’m not sure exactly what criteria I followed for including a song in the playlist, but many songs volunteered to be here.  Together they tell a story about who I am, and about my life’s journey including the battle with cancer.  For that reason this playlist is a potent sort of self-expression.Here is the playlist on YouTube.  I encourage anyone who wants to walk this life’s journey with me, to listen to the playlist as you cook dinner or take a long road trip.  If you’re really dedicated you can follow along and read the below commentary, and even view the lyrics if the song isn’t familiar to you.There are really three sections to this extensive playlist – chemotherapy can take a long time.  Counting waiting room visits, it’s an all-day affair from early morning labs until the end of infusions in the evening.  The first section is darker and more contemplative, and it turns on the song Morning Fog by Kate Bush to the second section, which is more uplifting and inspirational. The third section starts with I Choose You by Sarah Bareilles and consists mostly of love songs.  Love is a critical part of battling cancer; you need as much of it as you can get to keep up your strength and hopefulness.With or Without You (cover of the U2 song) by April MeservyMy hands are tied, my body bruised, you got me withNothing to win and nothing left to loseAnd you give yourself awayOne of my favorite songs by U2, this cover was performed by April Meservy spontaneously in a raw, deeply emotional state and is one of my favorite covers.  It was used by Meagan Duhamel and Eric Radford when they were skating in the 2018 Pyeongchang Winter Olympic Games.Sometimes in life’s relationships you give parts of yourself away to keep the peace or to make other people more secure or comfortable. Part of loving someone is protecting their bubble or world-view, and by sacrificing part of yourself, you can let them persist in that state for a time. One day, though, you will open your eyes and realize that giving away parts of yourself is a slow death. To survive cancer I am losing some of my physical parts – my organs, my comfort, my hobbies, my independence – and the journey leaves me with nothing to win and nothing left to lose.  In the context of this song’s lyrics I think of chemotherapy and surgery, and I can’t live with or without them; and so this song was my first choice to open my playlist. Each time I go to the infusion clinic, starting with this song somehow gives me the strength to persist.My brother-in-law JDZ lived in a house with me and my wife for years, and he was an enormous fan of U2, he listened to their music often and I just got used to hearing it in the background as the soundtrack to our lives.  So I can’t even hear this song without him appearing strongly in my thoughts.  He taught me a lot about finding joy and tranquility in life and in nature, even when the background noise makes those things very hard to find.  Honestly I don’t have a whole lot of male friends in my life, and the ones I do have are all sensitive and thoughtful and comfortable sharing themselves and their thoughts.  JDZ was a kind, steadfast, and selfless friend, and he was my brother.  He left this earth way too soon and even after many years, not a single day goes by that he doesn’t appear in my thoughts one way or another.  Every time I hear this song it triggers anew a deep sense of grief and loss.  I am okay with the feeling of grief and loss because it tells me I have not forgotten him, and he will live in me for as long as I live.\r\nSee the stone set in your eyes\r\nSee the thorn twist in your sideI’ll wait for youSleight of hand and twist of fateOn a bed of nails, she makes me waitAnd I wait without youWith or without youWith or without youThrough the storm, we reach the shoreYou give it all but I want moreAnd I’m waiting for youWith or without youWith or without you, ah, ahI can’t liveWith or without youAnd you give yourself awayAnd you give yourself awayAnd you giveAnd you giveAnd you give yourself awayMy hands are tied, my body bruised, you got me withNothing to win and nothing left to loseAnd you give yourself awayAnd you give yourself awayAnd you giveAnd you giveAnd you give yourself awayWith or without youWith or without you, ohI can’t liveWith or without youOh, ohOh, ohWith or without youWith or without you, ohI can’t liveWith or without youWith or without youShow LyricsSuzanne Vega has been probably my favorite artist ever since my sister tricked me into listening to her first album by asking me to record it to tape but to supervise it carefully, as scratches on the record could cause it to skip and ruin the recording. Since then I’ve seen Suzanne Vega in concert a dozen times or more, and took a songwriting class session with her one time.  We share a birthday – July 11 – and also a tender, emotional way of self-expression.  And I think maybe lyrics like these helped make me be more honest with myself and others.I chose this song because it is a lovely prayer to God that reminds me to humble myself to the ground, to look and listen for signs of God’s love in the world, and to respond.  Now what would you have me do? I ask you please.I wait to hear your voice, the word you sayI wait to see your sign.Would I obey?Cancer is humbling and the temptation to retreat into pity and focus only on yourself is strong.  This song somehow gives me the strength to stay connected to people and the world, and to always reach out with love to help, heal, and comfort.\r\nOnce I stood alone so proud\r\nHeld myself above the crowd\r\nAnd now I’m low on the groundFrom here I look around to seeWhat avenues belong to meI can’t tell what I’ve foundNow what would you have me do?I ask you pleaseI wait to hearThe mother and the matadorThe mystic, each were here beforeLike me to stare you downYou appear without a faceDisappear but leave your traceI feel your unseen frownNow what would you have me do?I ask you pleaseI wait to hearYour voiceThe wordYou sayI waitTo see your signWould IObey?I look for you in heathered moorThe desert and the ocean floorHow low does one heart go?Looking for your fingerprintsI find them in coincidenceAnd make my faith to growForgive me all my blindnessesMy weakness and unkindnessesAs yet unbending stillStruggling so hard to seeMy fist against eternityAnd will you break my will?Now what would you have me do?I ask you pleaseI wait to hearYour voiceThe wordYou sayI waitTo see your signWould IObey?Now what would you have me do?I ask you, pleaseI wait to hearYour voiceThe wordYou sayI waitTo see your signCould IObey?Show LyricsBroken by Tift MerrittTift Merritt is a Raleigh NC native and has performed locally at various events for years. Her songs have been on my radar for years, heard over the radio or in local restaurants and taverns. I always enjoy her music and lyrics.Now you’re broken and you don’t understandWhat is broken falls into place once againHand of kindness, come and gather me in like a rainstormAgain and again and againI think I will break but I mendI’ve always identified with this song since I have gone through a lot of my life feeling like I’m broken. There are lots of ways that I am different and not quite normal, and I don’t fit nicely into the regular mold of society.  When you get cancer you feel especially broken, and the idea of returning to wholeness is very attractive.  I find it comforting, the idea that kindness and love can mend all manner of brokenness.\r\nOnce you were a straight shot, a shiny quarter in a new slot\r\nNight would keep the dreams that you got for afternoon\r\nThen telling the truth got so hard, we were dancing in the backyard\r\nOnce I knew the end and the start, but now that’s throughNow you’re broken and you don’t understandWhat is broken falls into place once againHand of kindness, come and gather me in like a rainstormAgain and again and againWell morning comes to clean up like nothing happened when your heart stoppedLike all the lawyers calling all cops to wave days throughSo close your eyes for this long, something’s mixed up and something’s goneOnly fingers can you count on, and one leaves twoNow you’re broken and you don’t understandWhat is broken falls into place once againHand of kindness, come and gather me in like a rainstormAgain and again and againI think I will break but I mendAnd it’s these most loved losses, they are just old coin tossesAnd it’s these most loved losses are the hardest to carryI wish I were a freeway laid out clearer than a bright dayI’d run wide open down this causeway like brand newBut I’m broken and I don’t understandWhat is broken falls into place once againHand of kindness, come and gather me in like a rainstormAgain and againCause I’m broken and I don’t understandWhat is broken falls into place once againHand of kindness, come and gather me in like a rainstormAgain and again and againAgain and again and againAgain and again and againI think I will break but I mendShow LyricsManifesto by Nahko Bear and Medicine for the PeopleDon’t waste your hateRather, gather and createBe of service, be a sensible personUse your words and don’t be nervousYou can do this, you’ve got purposeFind your medicine and use itThis is one of my top favorite songs.  I first heard this song during a dance performance by Shellie Marie White Light and was shocked at how the song spoke to me. Nahko Bear is part Apache, Filipino, and Puerto Rican and I appreciate his songs and their deep personal and societal connection. Nahko and his family have suffered hard from the way native people are acted upon, and they often don’t have the freedom in life to choose their own path and reach their fullest potential.In native traditions, medicine is a wholeness of spirit and all the things that can get you there. It is precious to me, the idea that everyone will find their spirit by following their own unique path – you can’t follow anyone else’s journey as a shortcut to your own wholeness. Life has so many distractions to get you to wander off the path into darkness: material things, fear-mongering politics, war, racism, television. Instead, you have to make positive personal, loving connections and use your discernment to only let things of real value guide you.  You have a special combination of talents that no one else has.  So find your medicine and use it!\r\nWell this is real talk, this is non-stop\r\nIt is looped now tongue and mind\r\nPlayed off the sidewalk, straight to your boombox\r\nHow it travels from ear to memory\r\nWell this is medicine, there’s a message within\r\nAnd each will find it in their own timeWell this is music, this is how I use itIt makes you move and move the movementThis is how I focus, knowing it’s not hopelessBut it sure starts with me and ends on a whole noteMusical medicine, this is my healingFor past and present future things to comeI see people stressin’ over space and possessionsOut of fear and a need for visual aids of our abundanceGive me examples or something tangibleSomething I can get my hands on and find real meaningWhere is the medicine, well I’ve been searchingAnd I suppose each will find their own kindWell everything’s at stake, it makes it hard to concentrateAnd there are men who see a war and see a paycheckSuch different programming, to live so fearfullyTerror this and terror that, terrible realityThere is no medicine on the televisionSo turn it off and turn yourself aroundAnd let’s just face it, the world’s fuckin’ racistEven the most peaceful of us gets caught in the trendTo live cohesively is almost a fantasyAnd we ought to know it starts with humbling our egosWhat is the medicine for cultural woundin’?Has its moments, has its melodies, has its timeWell I was listening to the outgoing seasonsAbout climate change and some of the reasonsWhen the sky opened, like I been hopin’And there came horses by the thousandsAnd there was thunder on their tongues, and lightning on their mindsAnd they were singing this old melody from some other timeThey sang don’t waste your hateRather gather and createBe of service, be a sensible personUse your words and don’t be nervousYou can do this, you’ve got purposeFind your medicine and use itThey sang don’t waste your hateRather gather and createBe of service, be a sensible personUse your words and don’t be nervousYou can do this, you’ve got purposeFind your medicine and use itShow LyricsMoonshadow by Yusuf/Cat StevensI’ve loved this song pretty much since I first heard it from my high school friend Hunter W.  It’s meant different things to me at different points in my life, but right now I feel like next to my footprints in the sand, I’m leaving a wake of organs and removed body parts and wondering what will remain in the end.\r\nYes, I’m being followed by a moonshadow\r\nMoonshadow, moonshadow\r\nLeaping and hopping on a moonshadow\r\nMoonshadow, moonshadowAnd if I ever lose my handsLose my plow, lose my landOh, if I ever lose my handsOh, if, I won’t have to work no moreAnd if I ever lose my eyesIf my colours all run dryYes, if I ever lose my eyesOh, if, I won’t have to cry no moreYes, I’m being followed by a moonshadowMoonshadow, moonshadowLeaping and hopping on a moonshadowMoonshadow, moonshadowAnd if I ever lose my legsI won’t moan, and I won’t begOh, if I ever lose my legsOh, if, I won’t have to walk no moreAnd if I ever lose my mouthAll my teeth, north and southYes, if I ever lose my mouthOh, if, I won’t have to talkDid it take long to find me?I ask the faithful lightOh, did it take long to find me?And, are you gonna stay the night?I’m being followed by a moonshadowMoonshadow, moonshadowLeaping and hopping on a moonshadowMoonshadow, moonshadowMoonshadow, moonshadowMoonshadow, moonshadowShow LyricsDemons (Imagine Dragons cover) by Boyce AvenueSo they dug your graveAnd the masqueradeWill come calling outAt the mess you’ve madeThis is such a perfect song as performed by Imagine Dragons it seems like sacrilege to put a cover of it in my playlist, but I switched it out because the original suddenly felt a little too noisy for the contemplative setting of the chemotherapy infusion clinic, and this mellower duet is an incredible cover and it just fit in the setting.I have to be honest, I wasn’t a perfect kid growing up. There were couples who decided never to have babies after meeting me, and chaos seemed to follow me wherever I would go.  I’m sure all the good money was bet on me turning out to be a terrible person.  Even though I have great parents I always had a hard time obeying their rules or the rules of polite society; I had to work out every rule and principle by myself before importing it into my moral code.  Maybe I outright rejected the control that parents and society have on people. I never wanted to be controlled. I just wanted to find my own way and it was frustrating that everyone’s expectations always managed to get in my way.One person in my life always took the time to carefully explain to me the extent of the messes I made, and gently inspire me to be a kinder and more thoughtful person.  That person was my best friend growing up and for all of life, my wonderful sister SG.Despite all the best efforts of everyone involved, I still can’t pretend to be the best person ever. I’m never going to fit neatly into society’s mold, but I always try my best to make all my decisions with love and compassion.  This song helps me deal with all the demons of my past and the messes I’ve made along the way.I wanna hide the truthI wanna shelter youOne of the biggest messes in life is when you try to tell people your truth but they get angry or insecure, and they reject you, or tell you not to live that truth. So to shelter them you hide those parts of you by never mentioning them again, and before you know it, there is a whole room inside you that they will never know because you can never share it with them.  The really sad and lonely thing about living is that no one in your life will ever really know who you truly are.  That by itself is another kind of death that wears you down.  Because of other people’s own demons, no one can ever really know the real you.  That’s the place of darkness where your demons hide.I know that all the people I know have their own struggles and demons, with differing severities and extents.  I mindfully try and listen to all their self-expressions compassionately and without judgment.  Judgment isn’t my job, thank heavens, and I absolutely don’t want it.  By sincerely listening, I hope people will feel that I know them, I see them, and I love them no matter what.  When demons are shared they can no longer live in the shadows.\r\nWhen the days are cold\r\nAnd the cards all fold\r\nAnd the saints we see\r\nAre all made of goldWhen your dreams they failAnd the ones we hailAre the worst of allAnd the blood’s run staleI wanna hide the truthI wanna shelter youBut with the beast insideThere’s nowhere we can hideNo matter what we breedWe still are made of greedThis is my kingdom comeThis is my kingdom comeWhen you feel my heatLook into my eyesIt’s where my demons hideIt’s where my demons hideDon’t get too closeIt’s dark insideIt’s where my demons hideIt’s where my demons hideWhen the curtain’s callIt’s the last of allWhen the lights fade outAll the sinners crawlSo they dug your graveAnd the masqueradeWill come calling outAt the mess you’ve madeDon’t wanna let you downBut I am hell boundThough this is all for youDon’t wanna hide the truth.No matter what we breedWe still are made of greedThis is my kingdom comeThis is my kingdom comeWhen you feel my heatLook into my eyesIt’s where my demons hideIt’s where my demons hideDon’t get too closeIt’s dark insideIt’s where my demons hideIt’s where my demons hideThey say it’s what you makeI say it’s up to fateIt’s woven in my soulI need to let you goYour eyes, they shine so brightI wanna save that lightI can’t escape this nowUnless you show me howWhen you feel my heatLook into my eyesIt’s where my demons hideIt’s where my demons hideDon’t get too closeIt’s dark insideIt’s where my demons hideIt’s where my demons hideShow LyricsDreams by Fleetwood Mac, cover by the Running MatesI love Fleetwood Mac and Stevie Nicks, and this song doesn’t really relate to cancer or chemotherapy, but it is one of my favorite songs and always brings me comfort.  I keep coming back to this cover version of the song and I just appreciate how the Running Mates performed it.  It’s a powerful song about making bad decisions and losing everything you love.\r\nNow here you go again, you say you want your freedom\r\nWell, who am I to keep you down?\r\nIt’s only right that you should play the way you feel it\r\nBut listen carefully to the sound of your lonelinessLike a heartbeat drives you madIn the stillness of remembering what you hadAnd what you lostAnd what you hadAnd what you lostOh, thunder only happens when it’s rainingPlayers only love you when they’re playingSay, women, they will come and they will goWhen the rain washes you clean, you’ll knowYou’ll knowNow here I go again, I see the crystal visionsI keep my visions to myselfIt’s only me who wants to wrap around your dreamsAnd have you any dreams you’d like to sell?Dreams of lonelinessLike a heartbeat drives you madIn the stillness of remembering what you hadAnd what you lostAnd what you hadOh, what you lostThunder only happens when it’s rainingPlayers only love you when they’re playingWomen, they will come and they will goWhen the rain washes you clean, you’ll knowOh, thunder only happens when it’s rainingPlayers only love you when they’re playingSay, women, they will come and they will goWhen the rain washes you clean, you’ll knowYou’ll knowYou will knowOh, you’ll knowShow LyricsHurt by Nine Inch Nails, cover by Johnny CashThis is an incredible cover of the Nine Inch Nails song.  It’s a bit dark but a powerful song.  Johnny Cash was suffering from autonomic neuropathy when he performed this song, which I deeply connect with as my 16 rounds of chemotherapy have given me peripheral neuropathy, causing numbness and pain in my hands and feet, and it’s too painful for me to play guitar anymore.Johnny Cash’s performance altered the song’s feeling, which was originally about self-destruction and he made it feel more like a man looking back at his life at the very end.  Johnny Cash died a few months after recording this song, and I think everyone appreciates him putting his indelible stamp on this work of art.\r\nI hurt myself today\r\nTo see if I still feel\r\nI focus on the pain\r\nThe only thing that’s realThe needle tears a holeThe old familiar stingTry to kill it all awayBut I remember everythingWhat have I become?My sweetest friendEveryone I know goes awayIn the endAnd you could have it allMy empire of dirtI will let you downI will make you hurtI wear this crown of thornsUpon my liar’s chairFull of broken thoughtsI cannot repairBeneath the stains of timeThe feelings disappearYou are someone elseI’m still right hereWhat have I become?My sweetest friendEveryone I know goes awayIn the endAnd you could have it allMy empire of dirtI will let you downI will make you hurtIf I could start againA million miles awayI would keep myselfI would find a wayShow LyricsAnother dark sort of song, but it’s so cheerfully done that I enjoy this song a lot, especially the perky banjo.  I always seek to be good company, wherever I get to be in the end.\r\nDead love couldn’t go no further\r\nProud of, and disgusted by her\r\nPush, shove, a little bruised and battered\r\nOh Lord, I ain’t coming home with youMy life’s a bit more colderDead wife is what I told herBrass knife sinks into my shoulderOh babe, don’t know what I’m gonna doI see my red head, messed bed, tear shed, queen bee, my squeezeThe stage it smells, tellsHell’s bells, miss-spells, knocks me on my kneesIt didn’t hurt, flirt, blood squirt, stuffed shirt, hang me on a treeAfter I count down three rounds, in Hell I’ll be in good companyDead love couldn’t go no furtherProud of, and disgusted by herPush, shove, a little bruised and batteredOh Lord, I ain’t coming home with youMy life’s a bit more colderDead wife is what I told herBrass knife sinks into my shoulderOh babe, don’t know what I’m gonna doI see my red head, messed bed, tear shed, queen bee, my squeezeThe stage it smells, tellsHell’s bells, miss-spells, knocks me on my kneesIt didn’t hurt, flirt, blood squirt, stuffed shirt, hang me on a treeAfter I count down three rounds, in Hell I’ll be in good companyIn Hell, I’ll be in good companyIn Hell, I’ll be in good companyShow LyricsI won’t listen anyway, you don’t know meAnd I’ll never be what you want me to beThis song appeared in the Treasure Planet film that we watched about a thousand times when my children were young, and it was always my favorite part of the movie.  As a Goo Goo dolls fan I was instantly taken in by this brilliant Johnny Rzeznik performance.It was an unlikely place to find a song about people trying to mold you into the person they need you to be, while ignoring the person who you want to be. It really hits me in the feels.\r\n…I am a question to the world\r\nNot an answer to be heard\r\nOr a moment that’s held in your arms\r\nAnd what do you think you’d ever say?\r\nI won’t listen anyway, you don’t know me\r\nAnd I’ll never be what you want me to be… And what do you think you’d understand?I’m a boy, no, I’m a manYou can’t take me and throw me awayAnd how can you learn what’s never shown?Yeah, you stand here on your ownThey don’t know me ’cause I’m not here… And I want a moment to be realWanna touch things I don’t feelWanna hold on and feel I belong… And how can the world want me to change?They’re the ones that stay the sameThey don’t know me ’cause I’m not here… And you see the things they never seeAll you wanted I could beNow you know me and I’m not afraidAnd I wanna tell you who I amCan you help me be a man?They can’t break me as long as I know who I am… And I want a moment to be realWanna touch things I don’t feelWanna hold on and feel I belong… And how can the world want me to change?They’re the ones that stay the sameThey can’t see me but I’m still hereThey can’t tell me who to be‘Cause I’m not what they see… Yeah, the world is still sleepin’While I keep on dreaming for meAnd their words are just whispersAnd lies that I’ll never believe… And I want a moment to be realWanna touch things I don’t feelWanna hold on and feel I belong… And how can they say I never change?They’re the ones that stay the sameI’m the one now ’cause I’m still hereI’m the one ’cause I’m still hereI’m still here, I’m still here, I’m still hereShow LyricsThey may see that monster, they may run awayBut I have to do thisI can’t keep quietI absolutely love this song since hearing it around the time of the 2017 Women’s March in DC, and it is perfect to follow I’m Still Here thematically.  Maybe the best way to cure no one knowing who you really are, is to find your voice and tell your story.We are so scared of being judged for being ourselves, that we stifle our voices.  Perhaps I’m more scared that I will pass on to the Sky World and no one on earth will have really known me because I’ve kept quiet.\r\nPut on your face\r\nKnow your place\r\nShut up and smile\r\nDon’t spread your legs\r\nI could do thatBut no one knows me no one ever willIf I don’t say something, if I just lie stillWould I be that monster, scare them all awayIf I let them hear what I have to sayI can’t keep quiet, no oh oh oh oh oh ohI can’t keep quiet, no oh oh oh oh oh ohA one woman riot, oh oh oh oh oh oh ohI can’t keep quietFor anyoneAnymore‘Cause no one knows me no one ever willIf I don’t say something, take that dry blue pillThey may see that monster, they may run awayBut I have to do thisI can’t keep quiet, no oh oh oh oh oh ohI can’t keep quiet, no oh oh oh oh oh ohA one woman riot, oh oh oh oh oh oh ohOh I can’t keep quiet*Let it out Let it out now**Let it out now*There’ll be someone who understands*Let it out Let it out now**Let it out now*Must be someone who’ll understand*Let it out Let it out now**Let it out now*There’ll be someone who understands*Let it out Let it out now**Let it out now*I can’t keep quiet, no oh oh oh oh oh oh*Let it out Let it out now**Let it out now*I can’t keep quiet, no oh oh oh oh oh oh*Let it out Let it out now**Let it out now*Show LyricsMy friend Ras recommended Teardrop by Aurora in the comments of this blog post, and I think it is incredibly beautiful and have added it to several playlists.  But for some reason, for this playlist I found a strong chemotherapy-related connection with this song.  Thanks, Ras!\r\nI fall asleep in my own tears\r\nI cry for the world, for everyone\r\nAnd I build a boat to float in\r\nI’m floating awayI can’t recall last timeI opened my eyes to see the world as beautifulAnd I built a cage to hide inI’m hiding, I’m trying to battle the nightLet love conquer your mindWarrior, warriorJust reach out for the lightWarrior, warriorI am a warrior-ior-ior-iorWarrior, warriorI am a warrior-ior-ior-iorWarrior, warrior of loveI stand behind the wallOf people and thoughts, mind controllingAnd I hold a sword to guide meI’m fighting my wayI can’t recall last timeI opened my eyes to see the world as beautifulAnd I built a cage to hide inI’m hiding, I’m trying to battle the night, ah-ah-ahLet love conquer your mindWarrior, warriorJust reach out for the lightWarrior, warriorI am a warrior-ior-ior-iorWarrior, warriorI am a warrior-ior-ior-iorWarrior, warrior of loveUnderneath darkened skiesThere’s a light kept aliveLet love conquer your mindWarrior, warriorJust reach out for the lightWarrior, warriorI am a warrior-ior-ior-iorWarrior, warriorI am a warrior-ior-ior-iorWarrior, warrior of loveWarrior of loveWarrior of loveShow LyricsEasy by the CommodoresEverybody wants me to beWhat they want me to beI’m not happy when I try to fake itIn the cancer center there is often a piano player that comes in and plays show tunes and instrumental standards. It’s often sort of background music and in all the time I spent doing this, you would never know from the looks of all the cancer patients that anything moved them, EXCEPT this time he played “Easy” by the Commodores and a miraculous thing happened: many cancer patients of every conceivable age were tapping feet and mouthing the words, “easy like Sunday morning…” and it seemed like a peacefulness settled on the place. This was such a beautiful moment that this little tiny memory will be a treasure for me.Know it sounds funnyBut I just can’t stand the painGirl, I’m leaving you tomorrowSeems to me, girlYou know I’ve done all I canYou see, I begged, stole, and I borrowed, yeah, oohThat’s why I’m easyI’m easy like Sunday morningThat’s why I’m easyI’m easy like Sunday morningWhy in the world would anybody put chains on me, yeah?I’ve paid my dues to make itEverybody wants me to beWhat they want me to beI’m not happy when I try to fake it, no, oohThat’s why I’m easy (yeah)I’m easy like Sunday morning, yeahThat’s why I’m easyI’m easy like Sunday morningI wanna be high, so highI wanna be free to know the things I do are rightI wanna be freeJust me, oh babeOohThat’s why I’m easyI’m easy like Sunday morning, yeahThat’s why I’m easyI’m easy like Sunday morning, whoa‘Cause I’m easy, wooEasy like Sunday morning, yeah‘Cause I’m easyEasy like Sunday morning, whoaShow LyricsBlackbird by Emma Stevens, sung in Mi’kmakThis is one of my favorite songs by The Beatles, and Emma Stevens’ hauntingly beautiful cover in Mi’kmak is beautiful.\r\nPu’tliskiej wapinintoq\r\nKina’masi telayja’timk\r\ntel pitawsin\r\neskimatimu’sipnek nike’ mnja’sinPu’tliskiej wapinintoqEwlapin nike’ nmiteketel pkitawsineskimatimu’sipnek nike’ seya’sinPu’tliskiej…layja’sita’n wasatek poqnitpa’qiktukPu’tliskiej…layja’sita’n wasatek poqnitpa’qiktukPu’tliskiej wapinintoqKina’masi telayja’timktel pitawsineskimatimu’sipnek nike’ mnja’sineskimatimu’sipnek nike’ mnja’sineskimatimu’sipnek nike’ mnja’sin——————————————————–Boo-dull-ees-kee-edge wobbin-in-toqKee-na-ma-see dell-I-jaw-dimkdell-bit-ow-siness-gum-mud-dum-oo-sup-neg nike’ mn-jaw-sinBoo-dull-ees-kee-edge wobbin-in-toqew-la-bin nike’ num-mid-deh-gehdell-bit-ow-siness-gum-mud-dum-oo-sup-neg say-ya-sinBoo-dull-ees-kee-edge, lie-jaw-seedon wassa-deg poq-nit-ba’q-ik-tukBoo-dull-ees-kee-edge, lie-jaw-seedon wassa-deg poq-nit-ba’q-ik-tukBoo-dull-ees-kee-edge wobbin-in-toqKee-na-ma-see dell-I-jaw-dimkdell-bit-ow-siness-gum-mud-dum-oo-sup-neg nike’ mn-jaw-siness-gum-mud-dum-oo-sup-neg nike’ mn-jaw-siness-gum-mud-dum-oo-sup-neg nike’ mn-jaw-sinShow LyricsThis song was included in the PS3 video game Little Big Planet on a level that required multi-player cooperation and quite a few hilarious attempts to finish.  It’s a wonderful song about wishing you could return to the beginning of your life and make up for all your worst mistakes.  I’ve imperfectly translated it into English on alternate lines below:\r\nSi hiciera una lista de mis errores\r\n    If I made a list of my mistakes\r\nDe los menores hasta los peores\r\n    From the least to the worst\r\nQue expusiera todas las heridas\r\n    That exposed all the wounds\r\nLos fracasos, desamores y las mentiras\r\n    The failures, heartbreaks and liesOfreceré el aroma del ámbarI will offer the scent of amberOfreceré el cedro y mis lagrimasI will offer the cedar and my tearsCon la paciencia del mar esperaré, toda una vidaWith the patience of the sea I will wait, for a whole lifetimeA que sane la confianzaTo heal my trustSi volviera a comenzarEven if I started overNo tendría tiempo de repararI wouldn’t have time to fix itSi hiciera un viaje a mis adentrosIf I took a journey inside myselfY sobreviviera a los lamentosAnd I survived the lamentsPediría fuerzas para decir cuanto lo sientoI would ask for the strength to say how much I am sorrySi volviera en un viaje a mis adentrosIf I went back on a journey inside myselfSi volviera a comenzarEven if I started overNo tendría tiempo de repararI wouldn’t have time to fix itEl agua derramada estáWater that has spilled isLa sed que siento no saciaráThe thirst that I feel is never satisfied¿Cuantas cosas más puedo guardar?How many more things can I protect?¿Cuantas cosas puedo atesorar?How many things can I treasure?Dulce tentación de dejarlo todoSweet temptation to leave everything¿Cuanto espacio más quiero ocupar?How much more space do I want to occupy?(Hasta los recuerdos ya no caben en este lugar)(Even the memories no longer fit in this place)¿Cuantas cosas me puedo llevar?How many things can I carry?(La ultima mudanza debe ser la mas ligera)(The last move should be the lightest)Dulce tentaciónSweet temptationDe dejarlo todoto leave everythingDulce tentaciónSweet temptationRegalarlo todoTo give it all awaySi volviera a comenzarIf I started overNo tendría tiempo de repararI wouldn’t have time to fix itEl agua derramada estáWater that is spilled isLa sed que siento me sanaráThe thirst I feel will heal meEl agua derramada estáWater that is spilled isLa sed que siento me sanaráThe thirst I feel will heal meShow LyricsSo we carry every sadness with usEvery hour our hearts were brokenEvery night the fear and darknessLay down with usSometimes in life we are dealt a lot of crappy hands. We can dwell forever on everything we have lost, our unfulfilled dreams, and situations we barely survived. But dwelling on the past would let the wounds bleed forever. It would lead to distrust and hopelessness. Somewhere out there is a half acre you call home, where you can heal your soul and come back, created anew.\r\nI am holding half an acre\r\nTorn from the map of Michigan\r\nAnd folded in this scrap of paper\r\nIs the land I grew inThink of every town you’ve lived inEvery room you lay your headAnd what is it that you rememberDo you carry every sadness with youEvery hour your heart was brokenEvery night the fear and darknessLay down with youA man is walking on the highwayA woman stares out at the seaAnd light is only now just breakingSo we carry every sadness with usEvery hour our hearts were brokenEvery night the fear and darknessLay down with usBut I am holding half an acreTorn from the map of MichiganI am carrying this scrap of paperThat can crack the darkest sky wide openEvery burden taken from meEvery night my heart unfoldingMy homeShow LyricsGod of the rain, have mercy on the beasts and on me, poor mortal.My sister brought me this album back from Spain when she was studying in Seville.  This track is such a beautiful prayer to bring us back to more beautiful days.\r\nDios de la lluvia apiádate de las bestias y de mí.\r\n   God of the rain, have mercy on the beasts and on me\r\nVino tu llanto a redimir un mundo polvoriento y gris\r\n   Your call came to redeem a dusty and gray world\r\nhecho a medida del triste reptil.\r\n   Tailor-made for the sad reptileSeguí la luz y te perdíI followed the light and lost youdesde ese día rezaréFrom that day I will praypara que vuelvas envuelto en tu bruma.That you return wrapped in your mistDejé a mi niña, dulce abril,I left my girl, sweet Aprilentre aire de fresas y jazmínAmongst air of strawberries and jasminese desdibuja en mi memoriaIt fades in my memoryla umbría vereda que tantas veces recorrí.The shady path that I walked so many timesAntiguos aromas flotando en el aireAncient smells floating on the airespíritu de la bruma, no volveránSpirit of the mist, they won’t returnRíe mi niña flotando en el sueloMy daughter smiles, floating on the groundDios de la lluvia, devuélveme al ayerGod of the rain, take me back to yesterdayMaldito el día en que crecíCursed be the day I grew updejando atrás el sueño a queleaving behind the dream of whatdel dulce mundo en que aprendíof the sweet world where I learnedel dificil arte de vivirthe difficult art of livingEntre los campos verdes de abril,Among the green fields of Aprillejos del mundo, muy cerca de tifar from the world, very close to youDios de la lluvia abrázameGod of the rain embrace mey bajo tus nubes volveré a considerarand under your clouds I will consider againlas múltiples formas de besarthe many ways of kissingel aire bañado en tu perfume singularthe air bathed in your singular perfumeDe antiguos aromas flotando en el aireOf ancient smells floating in the airespíritu de la bruma, no volverán.spirit of the mist, they will not return.Ríe mi niña flotando entre helechosMy daughter laughs floating amongst fernsDios de la lluvia devuélveme al ayerGod of the rain bring me back to yesterdayDios de la lluvia apiádateGod of the rain have mercyde las bestias y de mí, pobre mortal.on the beasts and on me, poor mortalShow LyricsMy sister wanted me to learn this song so I could perform it with her, with me on the guitar and her on the banjo. I always deeply identified with the Prodigal Son, I have lived my life my own way and I can’t say I necessarily chose the wisest path.  The song keeps bringing me comfort during the chemotherapy.\r\nFather, meet me with Your arms wide open\r\nThe world’s done broken Your prodigal son\r\nDown that road I traveled\r\nEverything raveled only came undoneFather, lead me down to the riverWash me in the water ’til I’m whiter than snowI know I’m not worthyBut tell me there’s mercy for the wanderin’ soulI lost my way but now I’m on my kneesIf it’s not too late, won’t You tell me please?You gotta place for meA little grace for meFather, meet me in the cool green valleyIn all of Your glory, when my days are doneName me as one of Your chosenHeaven’s unbroken prodigal sonFather, meet me with Your arms wide openLead me down to the riverMeet me in the cool green valleyName me one of Your chosenHeaven’s unbroken prodigal sonShow LyricsLosing my religion is a southern expression essentially meaning, I’m at the end of my rope.  The song isn’t actually about losing one’s religion, though maybe in the context of cancer some people might give up their religion. Mine is alive and well still.  This is more a song about being ready to give up on a relationship that requires a lot of effort.  But this is one of my favorite songs and one of the first I learned to play on the mandolin.  This song and its dramatic title wanted to be here on the playlist and it fits nicely with the theme so here it is.\r\nOh life is bigger\r\nIt’s bigger than you\r\nAnd you are not me\r\nThe lengths that I will go to\r\nThe distance in your eyes\r\nOh no I’ve said too much\r\nI set it upThat’s me in the cornerThat’s me in the spotlightLosing my religionTrying to keep up with youAnd I don’t know if I can do itOh no I’ve said too muchI haven’t said enoughI thought that I heard you laughingI thought that I heard you singI think I thought I saw you tryEvery whisper, of every waking hourI’m choosing my confessionsTrying to keep an eye on youLike a hurt, lost and blinded fool, foolOh no I’ve said too muchI set it upConsider thisConsider this the hint of the centuryConsider this the slipThat brought me to my knees, failedWhat if all these fantasies comeFlailing aroundNow I’ve said too muchI thought that I heard you laughingI thought that I heard you singI think I thought I saw you tryBut that was just a dreamThat was just a dreamThat’s me in the cornerThat’s me in the spot-lightLosing my religionTrying to keep up with youAnd I don’t know if I can do itOh no I’ve said too muchI haven’t said enoughI thought that I heard you laughingI thought that I heard you singI think I thought I saw you tryBut that was just a dreamTry, cry, fly, tryThat was just a dreamJust a dreamJust a dream, dreamShow LyricsThe rose we rememberThe thorns we forgetI don’t need an excuse to include any Sade song in a playlist, but this song volunteered for duty.  It’s definitely the case that chemotherapy gets worse and worse each time, so truly it’s never as good as the first time.  You’re never going to know what fate is going to blow your way.\r\nGood times, they come and they go\r\nNever going to know\r\nWhat fate is going to blow\r\nYour way, just hope that it feels rightSometimes it comes and it goesYou take it ever so slowAnd then you lose itAnd then it flows right to youSo we rely on the pastAnd special moments that lastWere they as tenderAs we dare to remember?Such a fine time as thisWhat could equal the blissThe thrill of the first kissIt’ll blow right to youIt’s never as good as the first timeNever as good as the first time(Never as good as the first time)Good times, they come and they goNever going to knowIt’s like the weatherOne day chicken, next day feathersThe rose we rememberThe thorns we forgetWe’d love and leaveWe never spend a minute on regretIt is a possibilityThe more we know, the less we seeSecond time is not quite what it seemedNatural as the way we came to beThe second time won’t live up to the dreamIt’s never as good as the first time(Never as good as the first time)Never as good as the first time(Never as good as the first time)Ba-da-da-da, bum-bum-bumBa-ba-da-da-da, bum-bumBa-da-da-da, bum-bum-bumBa-ba-da-da-da, bum-bumNatural as the way we came to beSecond time won’t live up to the dreamAs natural as the way we came to beThe second time is not quite what it seemedIt’s never as good as the first timeAs the first timeNever as good as the first time (the first time)Natural as the way we came to beSecond time won’t live up to the dreamAs natural as the way we came to beSecond time is not quite what it seemedIt’s never, oohAs good as the first time (as good)As the first timeAs good as the first time (first time)Ba-da-da-da, bum-bum-bumBa-ba-da-da-da, bum-bumBa-da-da-da, bum-bum-bumBa-ba-da-da-da, bum-bumShow LyricsI like standing still, but that’s just a wishful planAs a military brat who had to leave his friends every six months or few years, I deeply identify with this song. I am lucky that do have roots, however: I am fortunate to have a very large and loving family from upstate New York, and I treasure the few days a year when we get to visit them all.\r\nI like digging holes and hiding things inside them\r\nWhen I grow old, I hope I won’t forget to find them\r\n‘Cause I’ve got memories and travel like gypsies in the night\r\nI build a home and wait for someone to tear it down\r\nThen pack it up in boxes, head for the next town running\r\n‘Cause I’ve got memories and travel like gypsies in the nightAnd a thousand times I’ve seen this roadA thousand timesI’ve got no roots, but my home was never on the groundI’ve got no roots, but my home was never on the groundI’ve got no roo-oo-oo-oo-oo-ootsI’ve got no roo-oo-oo-oo-oo-ootsI’ve got no roots, but my home was never on the groundI’ve got no roots, but my home was never on the groundI’ve got no roo-oo-oo-oo-oo-ootsI’ve got no roo-oo-oo-oo-oo-ootsI like standing still, but that’s just a wishful planAsk me where I come from, I’ll say a different landBut I’ve got memories and travel like gypsies in the nightI count gates and numbers, then play the guessing gameIt’s just the place that changes, the rest is still the sameBut I’ve got memories and travel like gypsies in the nightAnd a thousand times I’ve seen this roadA thousand timesI’ve got no roots, but my home was never on the groundI’ve got no roots, but my home was never on the groundI’ve got no roo-oo-oo-oo-oo-ootsI’ve got no roo-oo-oo-oo-oo-ootsI’ve got no roots, but my home was never on the groundI’ve got no roots, but my home was never on the groundI’ve got no roo-oo-oo-oo-oo-ootsI’ve got no roo-oo-oo-oo-oo-ootsI like digging holesHiding things inside themWhen I grow oldI won’t forget to find themI like digging holesHiding things inside themWhen I grow oldI won’t forget to find themI’ve got no rootsNo rootsI’ve got no roots, but my home was never on the groundI’ve got no roots, but my home was never on the groundI’ve got no roo-oo-oo-oo-oo-ootsI’ve got no roo-oo-oo-oo-oo-ootsI’ve got no roots, but my home was never on the groundI’ve got no roots, but my home was never on the groundI’ve got no roo-oo-oo-oo-oo-ootsI’ve got no roo-oo-oo-oo-oo-ootsNo!Show LyricsStay by Rihanna with Mikky EkkoSomehow this became one of my favorite songs. It always reminds me of my friend Katrina, who plays it often on the jukebox on pool league nights. You always need to remember there are many reasons to stay.  And I do hope I get to stay around for a while!\r\nAll along it was a fever\r\nA cold sweat, hot headed believer\r\nI threw my hands in the air, said, “Show me something”\r\nHe said, “If you dare, come a little closer”Round and around and around and around we goOh, now tell me now, tell me now, tell me now you knowNot really sure how to feel about itSomething in the way you moveMakes me feel like I can’t live without youIt takes me all the wayI want you to stayIt’s not much of a life you’re livingIt’s not just something you take, it’s givenRound and around and around and around we goOh, now tell me now, tell me now, tell me now you knowNot really sure how to feel about itSomething in the way you moveMakes me feel like I can’t live without youIt takes me all the wayAnd I want you to stayOoh, the reason I hold onOoh, ’cause I need this hole goneWell, funny you’re the broken oneBut I’m the only one who needed saving‘Cause when you never see the lightIt’s hard to know which one of us is cavingNot really sure how to feel about itSomething in the way you moveMakes me feel like I can’t live without youIt takes me all the wayI want you to stayStayI want you to stayOohShow LyricsStay by Kygo with Maty NoyesThis is the second song in a row called Stay, how weird!  I love this piano version of the song, the vocals are more infused with emotion than in the album version. \r\nThought I could leave you\r\nCause I felt my heart numbing\r\nIt hit so deep I closed my eyes and I just took off running\r\nI turned around and saw the look on your face\r\nSo I stayed\r\nStayedBut I don’t need youAnd you should know that babyIt’d take a miracle for you to really try and change meThen I felt sorry for the look on your faceSo I stayedStayedSo I stayedStayedSo I stayedStayedYou wanna leave herDon’t wanna hurt nobodyI don’t believe a single word you say or that you’re sorryWhy can’t I say no to the look on your faceI just stayStaySo I stayedStayedSo I stayedStayedYou push me away, Push me awayBut I always stay, I always stay, YeahYou push me away, Push me awayBut I always stay, I always stay, YeahYou push me away, Push me awayBut I always stay, I always stay, YeahYou push me away, Push me awayBut I always stay, I always stayBut will youWill you?Will you?So I stayedStayedSo I stayedStayedI stay, I stayOh why do I stay?So I stayedStayedShow Lyrics\r\nIt’s not your eyes\r\nIt’s not what you say\r\nIt’s not your laughter\r\nThat gives you away\r\nYou’re just lonely\r\nYou’ve been lonely too longAll your acting, your thin disguiseAll your perfectly delivered linesThey don’t fool meYou’ve been lonely too longLet me in the wallsYou’ve built aroundWe can light a matchAnd burn them downLet me hold your handAnd dance ’round and ’round the flamesIn front of usDust to dustYou’ve held your head upYou’ve fought the fightYou bear the scarsYou’ve done your timeListen to meYou’ve been lonely too longLet me in the wallsYou’ve built aroundWe can light a matchAnd burn them downLet me hold your handAnd dance ’round and ’round the flamesIn front of usDust to dustYou’re like a mirror, reflecting meTakes one to know one, so take it from meYou’ve been lonelyYou’ve been lonely too longWe’ve been lonelyWe’ve been lonely too longShow LyricsMy friend Kat once sent me a link to this astounding cover.  It reminds me to cherish all the moments I spend with my family and friends, and to give them the very best of me I can manage.\r\nI found myself dreaming in silver and gold\r\nLike a scene from a movie that every broken heart knows\r\nWe were walking on moonlight, and you pulled me close\r\nSplit second and you disappeared and I was all alone\r\nI woke up in tears with you by my side\r\nA breath of relief, and I realized\r\nNo, we’re not promised tomorrowSo I’m gonna love you like I’m gonna lose youI’m gonna hold you like I’m saying goodbyeWherever we’re standing, I won’t take you for granted‘Cause we’ll never know when, when we’ll run out of timeSo I’m gonna love youIn the blink of an eye, just a whisper of smokeYou could lose everything, the truth is you never knowSo I’ll kiss you longer, baby, any chance that I getI’ll make the most of the minutes and love with no regretLet’s take our time to say what we wantUse what we got before it’s all goneNo, we’re not promised tomorrowSo I’m gonna love you like I’m gonna lose youI’m gonna hold you like I’m saying goodbyeWherever we’re standing, I won’t take you for granted‘Cause we’ll never know when, when we’ll run out of timeSo I’m gonna love you like I’m gonna lose youI’m gonna love you like we’re saying goodbyeSo I’m gonna love you like I’m gonna lose youI’m gonna hold you like I’m saying goodbyeWherever we’re standing, I won’t take you for granted‘Cause we’ll never know when, when we’ll run out of timeSo I’m gonna love youShow LyricsI’ll Follow You Into The Dark by Death Cab for Cutie, cover by Jaclyn Glenn & David Michael FrankFear is the heart of loveI’ve often thought this song is so tender and tragic, it amazes me that Ben Gibbard laid the track down in one take while in the middle of technical problems and it became one of the band’s enduring singles.  It captures the depth of pain you feel sometimes when it occurs to you that someone you love could be gone forever from your life in an instant.  I have a lot of dark thoughts about these kinds of fear of grief and loss, more so than I have about the possibility of my own passing.  After the death of our daughter and after feeling decades of grief, at the prospect of feeling more grief I would selfishly much rather be the person who goes out first.  It is an exercise of prayer to contemplate the meaning of 1 John 4:18, that perfect love drives out fear, though that would be a fear-of-God sort of fear rather than a fear of losing a loved one.So my take-away is that we shouldn’t hold anything back, our hearts should be ever-trusting and open to love, and loss should never keep us from living, growing, and evolving, because we will hold each other again soon.\r\nLove of mine, someday you will die\r\nBut I’ll be close behind, I’ll follow you into the dark\r\nNo blinding light or tunnels to gates of white\r\nJust our hands clasped so tight, waiting for the hint of a sparkIf Heaven and Hell decide that they both are satisfiedIlluminate the “no”s on their vacancy signsIf there’s no one beside you when your soul embarksThen I’ll follow you into the darkIn Catholic school, as vicious as Roman ruleI got my knuckles bruised by a lady in blackAnd I held my tongue as she told me, “SonFear is the heart of love,” so I never went backIf Heaven and Hell decide that they both are satisfiedIlluminate the “no”s on their vacancy signsIf there’s no one beside you when your soul embarksThen I’ll follow you into the darkYou and me have seen everything to seeFrom Bangkok to Calgary and the soles of your shoesAre all worn down, the time for sleep is nowBut it’s nothing to cry about ’cause we’ll hold each other soonIn the blackest of roomsAnd if Heaven and Hell decide that they both are satisfiedAnd illuminate the “no”s on their vacancy signsIf there’s no one beside you when your soul embarksThen I’ll follow you into the darkThen I’ll follow you into the darkShow LyricsSky world by Theresa Bear Fox, cover by Teio SwatheTheresa Bear Fox is a Mohawk musician who comes from the Akwesasne Mohawk reservation where my Mom was born.  This version is in English, which is likely more accessible to readers.  Do check out this link for the original version in the Mohawk language.This song is written for people who are grieving, and it helps me cope better with chemotherapy somehow, to think of my daughter Maggie, uncles Greg and Bob and Eddie, aunts Sherrill and Joyce and Emily, cousins Allan and Mike, brother-in-law Jesse, and Grandparents Al and Lois and Alfred and Betty, and all my great-aunts and great-uncles in the Sky World.I am made from the love of these people and their spirits and lessons will span the generations.\r\nHa io ho we iaa\r\nWe ha na io ho we ia he\r\nIo ha io ha io ho we ia\r\nHa na io ho we ia he\r\nHa io ha io ho we ia\r\nHa na io haioho we ia\r\nIooho we ia\r\nWe ha na io ho we ia heLet’s put our minds together as oneAnd remember the ones who have passed on to the sky worldTheir life duties are complete they are living peacefullyIn the sky world, in the sky worldShow LyricsI’ve loved Justin Hayward and the Moody Blues for as long as I can remember, but the love started in 6th grade in Mr. Carroll’s class in Huntington Beach, California when we read The War of the Worlds and afterwards, he played Jeff Wayne’s musical version for the class. I was instantly addicted to that album, and my favorite song was Forever Autumn. It was so forlorn and lost, and provoked such an emotional response that I always loved it.  The sound of Justin Hayward’s voice led me to being a huge fan of The Moody Blues. A couple years ago, Justin Hayward performed at the Carolina Theater in Durham and I had to go. He performed Forever Autumn and it brought tears to my eyes. It was wonderful to see it performed live!Throughout my life this song has comforted me during times of great loss, either death or the end of friendships and relationships.  What makes us think that we have so much time?  We really squander the most precious moments we have with people by taking them for granted.  I wish I could spend all the rest of my moments with all those who are precious to me.\r\nThe summer sun is fading as the year grows old,\r\nAnd darker days are drawing near,\r\nThe winter winds will be much colder,\r\nNow you’re not here.\r\nI watch the birds fly south across the autumn sky\r\nAnd one by one they disappear\r\nI wish that I was flying with them,\r\nNow you’re not hereLike the sun through the trees you came to love meLike a leaf on a breeze you blew awayThrough autumn’s golden gown we used to kick our wayYou always loved this time of yearThose fallen leaves lie undisturbed now‘Cause you’re not hereLike the sun through the trees you came to love meLike a leaf on a breeze you blew awayA gentle rain falls softly on my weary eyesAs if to hide a lonely tearMy life will be forever autumn‘Cause you’re not hereShow LyricsSongs don’t get much more obscure than this one. It’s been with me since my trusty Creative Labs Nomad was my first 6GB MP3 player.  I think they only printed about a dozen copies of this album, but it is a fantastic one. The title is kind of dark in the context of cancer, but it is what it is.  For some reason I find it comforting.\r\nIf you take a walk\r\nDown by the river\r\nWhere the water is deep\r\nAnd the bridge is high\r\nYou can watch the ships\r\nSail away forever\r\nYou can say goodbye\r\nYou can say goodbyeStanding in the rainTrying to rememberWaiting for a faceTo fall from the skyEverywhere in townTrying to find the answerTo those dark eyesTo those sad, dark eyesEvery face I seeI see with you in mindEvery face I seeWith you in mindThe heaven and the skyWe walk the long goodbyeWhen two worlds fall apartWe feel the beating heartWhen you love someoneI could feel the sunriseI could feel forever, darling, in your eyesNow I know I’ll need someone to hold meI know I’ll need someone to show me loveEvery face I seeI see with you in mindEvery face I seeWith you in mindThe heaven and the skyWe walk the long goodbyeWhen two worlds fall apartWe feel the beating heartTo heaven and the skyWe walk the long goodbyeWhen two worlds fall apartWe feel the beating heartEvery face I seeI see with you in mindEvery face I seeWith you in mindYou’ve got to find a spaceFor some somewhere in your heartYou’ve got to find a spaceFor someone somewhereShow LyricsStairway to Heaven by Led Zeppelin, cover by Violet OrlandiI’ve been following Violet Orlandi for years on YouTube and I always enjoy hearing her cover of probably the most famous Zeppelin song.\r\nThere’s a lady who’s sure all that glitters is gold\r\nAnd she’s buying a stairway to heaven\r\nWhen she gets there she knows, if the stores are all closed\r\nWith a word she can get what she came for\r\nOoh, ooh, and she’s buying a stairway to heaven\r\nThere’s a sign on the wall, but she wants to be sure\r\n‘Cause you know sometimes words have two meanings\r\nIn a tree by the brook, there’s a songbird who sings\r\nSometimes all of our thoughts are misgivenYou knowThere’s a feeling I get when I look to the westAnd my spirit is crying for leavingIn my thoughts I have seen rings of smoke through the treesAnd the voices of those who stand lookingThat’s youAnd it’s whispered that soon, if we all call the tuneThen the piper will lead us to reasonAnd a new day will dawn for those who stand longAnd the forests will echo with laughterRemember laughter?Oh yeah, yeah, yeah…And it makes me wonderIf there’s a bustle in your hedgerow, don’t be alarmed nowIt’s just a spring clean for the May queenYes, there are two paths you can go by, but in the long runThere’s still time to change the road you’re onYour head is humming and it won’t go, in case you don’t knowThe piper’s calling you to join himDear lady, can you hear the wind blow, and did you knowYour stairway lies on the whispering wind?And as we wind on down the roadOur shadows taller than our soulThere walks a lady we all knowWho shines white light and wants to showHow everything still turns to goldAnd if you listen very hardThe tune will come to you at lastWhen all is one and one is all, that’s what it isTo be a rock and not to roll, oh yeahAnd she’s buying a stairway to heavenShow LyricsWe’re so worried about saving our soulsAfraid that God will take His toll that we forget to beginIt seems to be a recurring theme here, but I do hope on the balance my good deeds will outweigh the trouble I’ve caused along the way.\r\nPeople livin’ their lives for you on TV\r\nThey say they’re better than you and you agree\r\nHe says, “Hold my calls from behind those cold brick walls”\r\nSays, “Come here boys, there ain’t nothing for free”\r\nAnother doctor’s bill, a lawyer’s bill, another cute cheap thrill\r\nYou know you love him if you put in your will, butWho will save your souls when it comes to the flowers now?Who, who will save your souls after those lies that you told, boy?And who will save your souls if you won’t save your own?La dee-dee-da, dee-da, dee-da-da, da-la-daWe try to hustle them, try to bustle them, try to cuss ’emAnd the cops want someone to bust down on Orleans AvenueAnother day, another dollar, another warAnother tower went up where the homeless had their homesSo we pray to as many different Gods as there are flowersBut we call religion our friendWe’re so worried about saving our soulsAfraid that God will take His toll that we forget to begin, butWho will save your soul when it comes to the babies now?Who, who will save your soul after all those lies that you told, boy?And who will save your soul if you won’t save your own?La dee-dee-da, dee-da, dee-da-da, da-la-daSome are walking, some are talking, some are stalking their killGot social security but it doesn’t pay your billsThere are addictions to feed and there are mouths to paySo you bargain with the Devil, but you’re okay for today, sayThat you love them, take their money and runSay it’s been swell, sweetheart, but it was just one of those thingsThose flings, those strings you’ve got to cutSo get out on the streets, girls, and bust your buttsWho will save-ave your soul when it comes to the babies?Oh, who will save your souls after those lies that you told, boy?And who will save-ave your souls if you won’t save your own?Show LyricsWhen I’m Gone performed by Iain MacKintoshFor much of my life I have treasured the songs and wit of the Scottish folk singer Iain MacKintosh.  This is one of the songs that begged to be on the playlist. It encourages me to treasure every moment in life as though it were my last.\r\nThere’s no place in the world I belong when I’m gone\r\nI won’t know the right from the wrong when I’m gone\r\nYou won’t find me singing these songs when I’m gone\r\nSo I guess I’ll have to do it while I’m here\r\nYes, I guess I’ll have to do it while I’m hereI won’t see the passing of the time when I’m goneThe pleasures of love will not be mine when I’m goneMy hand can’t pour the red wine when I’m goneSo I guess I’ll have to do it while I’m hereYes, I guess I’ll have to do it while I’m hereI can’t breathe the bracing air when I’m goneI can’t even worry about my cares when I’m goneI won’t be asked to do my share when I’m goneSo I guess I’ll have to do it while I’m hereYes, I guess I’ll have to do it while I’m hereI can’t be running from the rain when I’m goneI can’t even suffer from the pain when I’m goneCan’t say who’s to praise or who’s to blame when I’m goneSo I guess I’ll have to do it while I’m hereYes, I guess I’ll have to do it while I’m hereI can’t see the gold of the sun when I’m goneThe mornings and the evenings will be one when I’m goneI can’t be singing louder than the guns when I’m goneSo I guess I’ll have to do it while I’m hereYes, I guess I’ll have to do it while I’m hereI can’t tell the foolish from the wise when I’m goneI can’t question how when or why when I’m goneI can’t be laughing at their lies when I’m goneSo I guess I’ll have to do it while I’m hereYes, I guess I’ll have to do it while I’m here(Not used:All my days won’t be dances of delight when I’m goneAnd the sands will be shifting from my sight when I’m goneCan’t add my name into the fight while I’m goneSo I guess I’ll have to do it while I’m here)Show LyricsOne of my favorite artists ever, I have been grooving to Jim Croce tunes since I was a kid and my parents often played all the albums on vinyl.  This is one of my mother’s favorite songs and it seems rather appropriate nowadays.I was originally scheduled for my 2nd cancer surgery on September 8, 2022 but I had tickets to a concert at the Carolina Theater in Durham, where A.J. Croce performed some of his father’s songs.  I would have had to ditch those tickets but the surgery was pushed back to September 16, 2022 and thankfully I got to attend that concert.  It was bittersweet hearing those songs performed, especially Photographs and Memories, where a slideshow of Croce family pictures brought tears to my eyes.  It was a moving performance.  This song made it onto my playlist long before I knew about the concert though, I would never leave a Jim Croce song out of any playlist.\r\nIf I could save time in a bottle\r\nThe first thing that I’d like to do\r\nIs to save every day till eternity passes away\r\nJust to spend them with youIf I could make days last foreverIf words could make wishes come trueI’d save every day like a treasure and thenAgain, I would spend them with youBut there never seems to be enough timeTo do the things you want to do, once you find themI’ve looked around enough to knowThat you’re the one I want to go through time withIf I had a box just for wishesAnd dreams that had never come trueThe box would be empty, except for the memory of howThey were answered by youBut there never seems to be enough timeTo do the things you want to do, once you find themI’ve looked around enough to knowThat you’re the one I want to go through time withShow LyricsThe Riddle by Five For FightingThis song was added to my chemo playlist by my oldest son Iain so that I could listen to it in the hospital.\r\nThere was a man back in ’95\r\nWhose heart ran out of summers, but before he died\r\nI asked him, “Wait, what’s the sense in life?\r\nCome over me, come over me”\r\nHe said, “Son, why you gotta sing that tune?\r\nCatch a Dylan song, or some eclipse of the moon\r\nLet an angel swing and make you swoon\r\nThen you will see, you will see”Then he said, “Here’s a riddle for yaFind the answerThere’s a reason for the worldYou and I”Picked up my kid from school today“Did you learn anything? ‘Cause in the world todayYou can’t live in a castle far awayNow, talk to me, come talk to me”He said, “Dad, I’m big, but we’re smaller than smallIn the scheme of things, well, we’re nothin’ at allStill, every mother’s child sings a lonely songSo play with me, come play with me”“And hey, Dad, here’s a riddle for yaFind the answerThere’s a reason for the worldYou and I”I said, “Son, for all I’ve told yaWhen you get right down to theReason for the worldWho am I?”There are secrets that we still have left to findThere have been mysteries from the beginning of timeThere are answers we’re not wise enough to seeHe said, “You’re lookin’ for a clue? I love you free”The batter swings, and the summer fliesAs I look into my angel’s eyesA song plays on while the moon is highOver me, somethin’ comes over meI guess we’re big, and I guess we’re smallIf you think about it, man, ya know, we got it all‘Cause we’re all we got on this bouncin’ ballAnd I love ya free, I love you freelyHere’s a riddle for yaFind the answerThere’s a reason for the worldYou and IShow LyricsThe time is getting closerTime to be a ghostEvery day we’re getting closerThe sun is getting dimWill we pay for who we’ve been?I have been a huge Tori Amos fan since the time of her first album. I remember once watching an episode of CSI: Miami, when the investigators looked at the songs on a victim’s phone and said something like, “obviously this belongs to a woman because the device is full of Tori Amos songs.” What a terrible assumption!  My whole phone is overflowing with Tori Amos songs.\r\nAnd if I die today I’ll be the happy phantom\r\nAnd I’ll go chasin’ the nuns out in the yard\r\nAnd I’ll run naked through the streets without my mask on\r\nAnd I will never need umbrellas in the rain\r\nI’ll wake up in strawberry fields every day\r\nAnd the atrocities of school I can forgive\r\nThe happy phantom has no right to bitch\r\noo who\r\nThe time is getting closer\r\noo who\r\nTime to be a ghost\r\noo who\r\nEvery day we’re getting closer\r\nThe sun is geting dim\r\nWill we pay for who we’ve beenSo if I die today I’ll be the happy phantomAnd I’ll go wearin’ my naughties like a jewelThey’ll be my ticket to the universal operaThere’s Judy Garland taking Budda by the handAnd then these seven little men get up to danceThey say Confucius does his crossword with a penI’m still the angel to a girl who hates to sinoo whoThe time is getting closeroo whoTime to be a ghostoo whoEvery day we’re getting closerThe sun is getting dimWill we pay for who we’ve beenOr will I see you dear and wish I could come backYou found a girl that you could truly love againWIll you still call for me when she falls asleepOr do we soon forget the things we cannot seeoo whoThe time is getting closeroo whoTime to be a ghostoo whoEvery day we’re getting closerThe sun is getting dimWill we pay for who we’ve beenShow LyricsEspecially at nightI worry over situationsI know will be alrightPerhaps it’s just imaginationAfter chemotherapy and the dexamethasone steroids, I can’t get to sleep thinking of implications and complications, and this song always comes to mind when I am stricken by insomnia.  I was lucky to see Colin Hay perform as an opening act for the Barenaked Ladies a few years back.\r\nI can’t get to sleep\r\nI think about the implications\r\nOf diving in too deep\r\nAnd possibly the complicationsEspecially at nightI worry over situationsI know will be alrightPerhaps it’s just imaginationDay after day it reappearsNight after night my heartbeat shows the fearGhosts appear and fade awayAlone between the sheetsOnly brings exasperationIt’s time to walk the streetsSmell the desperationAt least there’s pretty lightsAnd though there’s little variationIt nullifies the night from overkillDay after day it reappearsNight after night my heartbeat shows the fearGhosts appear and fade awayCome back another dayI can’t get to sleepI think about the implicationsOf diving in too deepAnd possibly the complicationsEspecially at nightI worry over situationsI know will be alrightIt’s just overkillDay after day it reappearsNight after night my heartbeat shows the fearGhosts appear and fade awayGhosts appear and fade awayGhosts appear and fade awayShow LyricsSometimes I lay under the moonAnd I thank God I’m breathin’Then I pray don’t take me soon‘Cause I am here for a reasonAs a child I always hoped and prayed that the world would become an even better place over the course of my lifetime. I was so very wrong. I am heartbroken to see so much backsliding, strife, division, hatred and reckless conflict in the world, and lately I’m more comforted at the idea of passing away before it gets apocalyptically worse. But I have a deep hopeful spirit and I know things will be all right. This song is so hopeful, and I have always felt better after hearing it.\r\nSometimes I lay under the moon\r\nAnd I thank God I’m breathin’\r\nThen I pray don’t take me soon\r\n‘Cause I am here for a reasonSometimes in my tears I drownBut I never let it get me downSo when negativity surroundsI know someday it’ll all turn around becauseAll my life I been waitin’ forI been prayin’ for, for the people to sayThat we don’t want to fight no moreThey’ll be no more warsAnd our children will play, one dayIt’s not about win or lose ’cause we all loseWhen they feed on the souls of the innocent bloodDrenched pavement keep on movin’Though the waters stay ragin’And in this life you may lose your wayIt might drive you crazyBut don’t let it phase you, no waySometimes in my tears I drownBut I never let it get me downSo when negativity surroundsI know someday it’ll all turn around becauseAll my life I been waitin’ forI been prayin’ for, for the people to sayThat we don’t want to fight no moreThey’ll be no more warsAnd our children will play, one dayOne day this all will changeTreat people the sameStop with the violence down with the hateOne day we’ll all be free and proudTo be under the same sunSinging songs of freedom likeShow LyricsI’m a public embarrassmentI’m a bottle of diet poisonThe Barenaked Ladies are one of my top-favorite bands, and I often feel like this song perfectly fits me. \r\nI’m a kid in a candy store\r\nI’m a bull in a china shop\r\nI’m a tired old metaphor\r\nFor everything you can’t afford\r\nAnd everything you can’t afford to beI’m a public embarrassmentI’m a bottle of diet poisonI’m a walking advertisementFor everything I never meantAnd everything I never meant to beI can’t hear a thing‘Cause I’ve stopped listeningI’m the reason I don’t go outI’m afraid I might tell me somethingI’m the shadow of every doubtI’m the product the song’s aboutAnd I’m the product the song’s about to beI can’t hear a thing‘Cause I’ve stopped listeningI can’t hear a thing‘Cause I’ve stopped listeningEvery morningSince I was bornIt’s been hard to look in the mirrorAnd see my face for the hornsAll the fun that the law allowsAll the fun but with half the meaningCome on over, I’ll show you howIf you lived here, you’d be home by nowIf you still lived here, you’d be home now with meI can’t hear a thing‘Cause I’ve stopped listeningI can’t hear a thing‘Cause I’ve stopped listeningShow LyricsOh, no there ain’t no rest for the wickedUntil we close our eyes for goodSometimes life goes so hard there isn’t time to rest when there are bills to pay and mouths to feed. I’m not sure how truly wicked I am, but maybe that’s why there isn’t any rest.He was a-Ya know itHe was a-I was walking down the streetWhen out the corner of my eyeI saw a pretty little thing approaching meShe said, I’ve never seen a manWho looks so all aloneUh, could you use a little company?If you pay the right priceYour evening will be niceAnd you can go and send me on my wayI said, “You’re such a sweet young thingWhy’d you do this to yourself?”She looked at me and this is what she said“Oh, there ain’t no rest for the wickedMoney don’t grow on treesI got bills to payI got mouths to feedThere ain’t nothing in this world for freeI know I can’t slow downI can’t hold backThough you knowI wish I couldOh, no there ain’t no rest for the wickedUntil we close our eyes for good”Not even 15 minutes laterI’m still walking down the streetWhen I saw the shadow of a man creep out of sightAnd then he swept up from behindHe put a gun up to my headHe made it clear he wasn’t looking for a fightHe said, “Give me all you’ve gotI want your money not your lifeBut if you try to make a move, I won’t think twice”I told him, “You can have my cashBut first you know I got to askWhat made you want to live this kind of life?”He said, “There ain’t no rest for the wickedMoney don’t grow on treesI got bills to payI got mouths to feedThere ain’t nothing in this world for freeI know I can’t slow downI can’t hold backThough you know, I wish I couldOh no there ain’t no rest for the wickedUntil we close our eyes for good”YeahYou know itHe was a-You know itHe was a-Well, now a couple hours passedAnd I was sitting at my houseThe day was winding down and coming to an endAnd so I turned on the TVAnd flipped it over to the newsAnd what I saw I almost couldn’t comprehendI saw a preacher man in cuffsHe’d taken money from the churchHe’d stuffed his bank account with righteous dollar billsBut even still I can’t say muchBecause I know we’re all the sameOh yes, we all seek out to satisfy those thrillsYou know there ain’t no rest for the wickedMoney don’t grow on treesWe got bills to payWe got mouths to feedThere ain’t nothing in this world for freeI know we can’t slow downWe can’t hold back, though you know, we wish we couldOh no, there ain’t no rest for the wickedUntil we close our eyes for goodShow LyricsI ain’t askin’ for a miracle, LordJust a little bit o’ luck will doI love Robert Earl Keen, I think I got turned onto his music hearing the song “Swervin’ In My Lane” on the radio on my morning commute.  I’m somehow fascinated by the ways people pray to God.  Some prayers sound like God is making a mistake and needs correction.  Or like in the film It’s a Wonderful Life, maybe a huge number of people praying for the same person gets God’s attention and may warrant some intervention.  There is a certain crass honesty in Tom Ames’ prayer.Everyone in NacogdochesKnew Tom Ames would come to some bad end‘Cause the sheriff caught himStealin’ chickens and such by the time that he was tenOne day his daddy took a ten-dollar billHe tucked it in his handHe said I know that you’re headed for trouble sonYour Momma wouldn’t understandSo he took his Dad’s money and his brother’s old bayHe left without a word of thanksHe fell in with this crowd in some border townAnd he took to robbin’ banksOutside the law his luck had run out fastA few years came and went‘Til he’s trapped in an alley in AbileneWith all but four shells spentAnd he realized prayin’ was the only thingThat he hadn’t ever triedWell he wasn’t sure that he knew quite howBut he looked up to the skyHe said: You don’t owe me nothin’ and as far as I know LordI don’t owe nothin’ to youI ain’t askin’ for a miracle LordJust a little bit o’ luck will doYou know I ain’t never prayed before‘Cause it always seemed to meThat prayin’s the same as beggin’ LordI don’t take no charityBut right now Lord with my back to the wallI can’t help but recallHow they nearly hung me for stealin’ a horseIn Fort Smith, ArkansasJudge Parker said guilty and the gavel came downJust like a cannon shotI went away quietlyI began to file a plotThey sent the preacher on down to my cellHe said the Lord is your only hopeHe’s the only friend you’re gonna have sonWhen you hit the end of Parker’s ropeAnd I guess he could’ve kept on preachin’ till ChristmasBut he turned his back on meI put a homemade knife to that golden throatAsked the deputy for the keyIt ain’t the first trouble I’ve seen beforeAs you already knowI’ve had some help from you Lord and the Devil himself’sBeen strictly touch and goYeah but who in the hell am I talkin’ toThere ain’t no one here but meSo he cocked both his pistols and he spit in the dirtAnd he walked out into that streetShow LyricsThis song made it onto the playlist because it’s fun and during a long cancer battle, one thing always leads to another.\r\nThe deception with tact, just what are you trying to say?\r\nYou’ve got a blank face, which irritates\r\nCommunicate, pull out your party piece\r\nYou see dimensions in two\r\nState your case with black or white\r\nBut when one little cross leads to shots, grit your teeth\r\nYou run for cover so discreet, why don’t they\r\nDo what they say, say what you mean, and baby\r\nOne thing leads to another\r\nYou told me something wrong, I know I listen too long but then\r\nOne thing leads to anotherThe impression that you sellPasses in and out like a scentBut the long face that you see comes from living close to your fearsIf this is up then I’m up but you’re running out of sightYou’ve seen your name on the wallsAnd when one little bump leads to shock miss a beatYou run for cover and there’s heat, why don’t theyDo what they say, say what they meanOne thing leads to anotherYou told me something wrong, I know I listen too long but thenOne thing leads to another, yeah, yeah, yeahOne thing leads to anotherThen it’s easy to believeSomebody’s been lying to meBut when the wrong word goes in the right earI know why you’ve been lying to meIt’s getting rough, off the cuff I’ve got to say enough’s enoughBigger the harder he fallsBut when the wrong antidote is like a bulge on the throatYou run for cover in the heat why don’t theyDo what they say, say what they meanOne thing leads to anotherYou told me something wrong, I know I listen too long but thenOne thing leads to another, yeah, yeahOne thing (one thing) leads to anotherOne thing (one thing) leads to anotherOne thing (one thing) leads to anotherOne thing (one thing) leads to anotherOne thing (one thing) leads to anotherOne thing (one thing) leads to anotherShow LyricsI have liked Huey Lewis and the News since my middle-school crush Cara introduced me to the band’s music, so it always makes me think fondly of her.  But when this song came up at random I realized with the chemotherapy, that I want a new drug that won’t make me sick, one that won’t keep me up at night or make me sleep all day.\r\nI want a new drug, one that won’t make me sick\r\nOne that won’t make me crash my car\r\nOr make me feel three-feet thickI want a new drug, one that won’t hurt my headOne that won’t make my mouth too dryOr make my eyes too redOne that won’t make me nervousWonderin’ what to doOne that makes me feel like I feel when I’m with youWhen I’m alone with youI want a new drug, one that won’t spillOne that don’t cost too muchOr come in a pillI want a new drug, one that won’t go awayOne that won’t keep me up all nightOne that won’t make me sleep all dayOne that won’t make me nervousWonderin’ what to doOne that makes me feel like I feel when I’m with youI’m alone with you, babyI’m alone with you, babyI want a new drug, one that does what it shouldOne that won’t make me feel too badOne that won’t make me feel too goodI want a new drug, one with no doubtOne that won’t make me talk to muchOr make my face breakoutOne that won’t make me nervousWonderin’ what to doOne that makes me feel like I feel when I’m with youI’m alone with youI’m alone with you, yeah, yeahShow LyricsYou can guess why this song was included merely from the title, but it really speaks to me during chemotherapy.  With my peripheral neuropathy, I have nerve pain in my fingers and toes so the line “I can’t control my fingers, I can’t control my toes” is so accurate it’s creepy.\r\nTwenty, twenty, twenty four hours to go I wanna be sedated\r\nNothin’ to do, no where to go, oh, I wanna be sedatedJust get me to the airport put me on a planeHurry, hurry, hurry before I go insaneI can’t control my fingers, I can’t control my brainOh no, oh, oh, oh, ohTwenty, twenty, twenty four hours to go I wanna be sedatedNothin’ to do, no where to go, oh, I wanna be sedatedJust put me in a wheelchair get me on a planeHurry, hurry, hurry before I go insaneI can’t control my fingers, I can’t control my brainOh no, oh, oh, oh, ohTwenty, twenty, twenty four hours to go I wanna be sedatedNothin’ to do, no where to go, oh, I wanna be sedatedJust put me in a wheelchair, get me to the showHurry, hurry, hurry before I go locoI can’t control my fingers, I can’t control my toesOh no, oh, oh, oh, ohTwenty, twenty, twenty four hours to go I wanna be sedatedNothin’ to do, no where to go, oh I wanna be sedatedJust put me in a wheelchair, get me to the showHurry, hurry, hurry before I go locoI can’t control my fingers, I can’t control my toesOh no, oh, oh, oh, ohBamp bamp, ba bamp, ba bamp bamp, ba bamp, I wanna be sedatedBamp bamp, ba bamp, ba bamp bamp, ba bamp, I wanna be sedatedBamp bamp, ba bamp, ba bamp bamp, ba bamp, I wanna be sedatedBamp bamp, ba bamp, ba bamp bamp, ba bamp, I wanna be sedatedShow LyricsThis song turns the mood of the playlist from dark and moody to light and positive.  I have been a huge Kate Bush fan since I was a teenager, and Hounds of Love is my favorite of her albums. \r\nThe light\r\nBegin to bleed,\r\nBegin to breathe,\r\nBegin to speak\r\nD’you know what?\r\nI love you better now.\r\nI am falling\r\nLike a stone,\r\nLike a storm\r\nBeing born again\r\nInto the sweet morning fog.\r\nD’you know what?\r\nI love you better now.I am fallingAnd I’d love to hold you now,I’ll kiss the groundI’ll tell my motherI’ll tell my fatherI’ll tell my loved onesI’ll tell my brothersHow much I love them.Show LyricsThough I’m far awayI’ll whisper your nameInto the skyAnd I will wake up happyI love the romantic optimism of this song. Despite the hard times in this battle, I always wake up happy.\r\nYou felt like springtime on this February morning\r\nIn a courtyard, birds were singing your praise\r\nI’m still recalling things you said\r\nTo make me feel all right\r\nI carry them with me todayNow as I lay me down to sleepThis I prayThat you will hold me dearThough I’m far awayI’ll whisper your nameInto the skyAnd I will wake up happyI wonder whyI feel so highThough I am not above the sorrowHeavy-hearted ’til you call my nameAnd it sounds like church bellsOr the whistle of a train on a Summer eveningI want to meet you barefoot, barely breathingAs I lay me down to sleepThis I prayThat you will hold me dearThough I’m far awayI’ll whisper your nameInto the skyAnd I will wake up happyAs I lay me down to sleepThis I prayThat you will hold me dearThough I’m far awayI’ll whisper your nameInto the skyAnd I will wake up happyIt’s not too near for meLike a flower, I need the rainThough it’s not clear to meEvery season has its changeAnd I will see you when the sun comes out againAs I lay me down to sleepThis I prayThat you will hold me dearThough I’m far awayI’ll whisper your nameInto the skyAnd I will wake up happyOh-oh, as I lay me down to sleepThis I prayThat you will hold me dearThough I’m far awayI’ll whisper your nameInto the skyAnd I will wake up happyI wonder whyMm, the sun comes out againWhen the sun comes out againWhen the sun comes out againWhen the sun comes outOh, the sun comes out againWhen the sun comes out againMm, comes out, comes outOh, wake up happy‘Cause I prayShow LyricsBetter by Regina SpektorIf you never say your name out loud to anyoneThey can never ever call you by it\r\nIf I kiss you where it’s sore\r\nIf I kiss you where it’s sore\r\nWill you feel better, better, better\r\nWill you feel anything\r\nAt all\r\nWill you feel better, better, better\r\nWill you feel anything\r\nAt allBorn like sisters to this worldIn a town where blood ties are only bloodIf you never say your name out loud to anyoneThey can never ever call you by itIf I kiss you where it’s soreIf I kiss you where it’s soreWill you feel better, better, betterWill you feel anythingAt allWill you feel better, better, betterWill you feel anythingAt aaallAh, ah-ah-ah-ahLa, laa-laLa, laa-laYou’re gettin’ sadderSad, get sadderSadI don’t understandAnd I don’t understandBut if I kiss you where it’s soreIf I kiss you where it’s soreWill you feel better, better, betterWill you feel anythingAt allFeel better, better, betterWill you feel anythingAt allWill you feel anything at ah-allOh, anything at allWill you feel anything at ah-allOh, anything at allWill you feel anything at ah-allAnything at allWill you feel anything at ah-allAnything at allWill you feel anything at all…Show LyricsOdds Are by The Barenaked LadiesSo get up, get upTell the bookie put a bet on “not a damn thing will go wrong”This song is the most important song on this playlist.  I love it, and it is so incredibly appropriate.  It always makes me feel lighthearted and happy, like everything is going to probably be all right.  It also has a kick-ass music video.\r\nStruck by lightning, sounds pretty frightening\r\nBut you know the chances are so small\r\nStuck by a bee sting, nothing but a B-thing\r\nBetter chance you’re gonna buy it at the mall\r\nBut it’s a twenty-three-or-four-to-one\r\nThat you can fall in love by the end of this song\r\nSo get up, get up\r\nTell the bookie put a bet on “not a damn thing will go wrong”The odds are that we will probably be all rightOdds are we gonna be all right, odds are we gonna be all right tonightThe odds are that we will probably be all rightOdds are we gonna be all right, odds are we gonna be all right for another nightHit by the A-Train, crashed in an airplaneI wouldn’t recommend either oneKilled by a Great White or a meteoriteI guess there ain’t no way to know that’s funBut somewhere in the world someone is gonna fall in love by the end of this songSo get up, get upNo it’s never gonna let up so you might as well sing alongThe odds are that we will probably be all rightOdds are we gonna be all right, odds are we gonna be all right tonightThe odds are that we will probably be all rightOdds are we gonna be all right, odds are we gonna be all right for another nightSure things go wrong, but I’ll take my chancesOdds are long, so why not play?Struck by lightning, sounds pretty frighteningBut you know the chances are so smallHit by the A-Train, crashed in an airplaneBetter chance you’re gonna buy it at the mallBut it’s a twenty-three-or-four-to-oneThat you can fall in love by the end of this songSo get up, get upNo I’m never gonna let up so you might as well sing alongThe odds are that we will probably be all rightOdds are we gonna be all right, odds are we gonna be all right tonightThe odds are that we will probably be all rightOdds are we gonna be all right, odds are we gonna be all right tonightThe odds are that we will probably be all rightOdds are we gonna be all right, odds are we gonna be all right tonightThe odds are that we will probably be all rightOdds are we gonna be all right, odds are we gonna be all right for another nightShow LyricsThere’s more than one answer to these questionsPointing me in a crooked lineThe less I seek my source for some definitiveCloser I am to fineI think sometimes I over-think everything, and this song reminds me to just live and love, persist in the moment, and find meaning and happiness there.\r\nI’m trying to tell you something about my life\r\nMaybe give me insight between black and white\r\nAnd the best thing you’ve ever done for me\r\nIs to help me take my life less seriously\r\nIt’s only life after all, yeahWell darkness has a hunger that’s insatiableAnd lightness has a call that’s hard to hearAnd I wrap my fear around me like a blanketI sailed my ship of safety till I sank itI’m crawling on your shoresAnd I went to the doctor, I went to the mountainsI looked to the children, I drank from the fountainsThere’s more than one answer to these questionsPointing me in a crooked lineAnd the less I seek my source for some definitive(The less I seek my source)Closer I am to fine(Fine, yeah)Closer I am to fine(Fine, yea)And I went to see the doctor of philosophyWith a poster of Rasputin and a beard down to his kneeHe never did marry or see a B-grade movieHe graded my performance, he said he could see through meI spent four years prostrate to the higher mindGot my paper and I was freeAnd I went to the doctor, I went to the mountains (Ooh)I looked to the children, I drank from the fountainsThere’s more than one answer to these questionsPointing me in a crooked lineAnd the less I seek my source for some definitive(The less I seek my source)Closer I am to fine(Fine, yeah)Closer I am to fine(Fine, yeah)I stopped by the bar at three a.m.To seek solace in a bottle or possibly a friendAnd I woke up with a headache like my head against the boardTwice as cloudy as I’d been the night beforeAnd I went in seeking clarityI went to the doctor, I went to the mountainsI looked to the children, I drank from the fountainsAnd we go to the doctor, we go to the mountainsWe look to the children, we drink from the fountainsYea we go to the Bible, we go through the workoutWe read up on revival, we stand up for the lookoutThere’s more than one answer to these questionsPointing me in a crooked lineThe less I seek my source for some definitive(The less I seek my source)Closer I am to fine(Fine)Closer I am to fine(Fine)Closer I am to fine(Fine, yea)Show LyricsI often find myself singing this song to myself on the way to the cancer center for chemotherapy appointments.  Most of the time even though I’m not looking forward to the side effects and symptoms, I’m all revved up and ready to go. I hop up on the table like a happy puppy… let’s go!\r\nHey ho, let’s go! Hey ho, let’s go!\r\nHey ho, let’s go! Hey ho, let’s go!They’re forming in straight lineThey’re going through a tight windThe kids are losing their mindsThe Blitzkrieg BopThey’re piling in the back seatThey’re generating steam heatPulsating to the back beatThe Blitzkrieg BopHey ho, let’s goShoot’em in the back nowWhat they want, I don’t knowThey’re all revved up and ready to goThey’re forming in straight lineThey’re going through a tight windThe kids are losing their mindsThe Blitzkrieg BopThey’re piling in the back seatThey’re generating steam heatPulsating to the back beatThe Blitzkrieg BopHey ho, let’s goShoot’em in the back nowWhat they want, I don’t knowThey’re all revved up and ready to goThey’re forming in straight lineThey’re going through a tight windThe kids are losing their mindsThe Blitzkrieg BopThey’re piling in the back seatThey’re generating steam heatPulsating to the back beatThe Blitzkrieg BopHey ho, let’s go! Hey ho, let’s go!Hey ho, let’s go! Hey ho, let’s go!Show LyricsBreathe by Michelle BranchBreatheEvery little piece of me, you’ll seeEverything is alrightIf I just breatheSometimes when things feel hopeless you just have to tell yourself to breathe.  I love Michelle Branch songs, it’s hard to believe most of them were written when she was a teenager. That’s when our angst is turned up to eleven, so it makes sense.\r\nI’ve been driving for an hour\r\nJust talkin’ to the rain\r\nYou say I’ve been driving you crazy\r\nAnd it’s keeping you away\r\nSo just give me one good reason\r\nTell me why I should stay\r\n‘Cause I don’t wanna waste another moment\r\nSaying things we never meant to sayAnd I take it just a little bitI hold my breath and count to tenI’ve been waiting for a chance to let you inIf I just breatheLet it fill the space between, I’ll knowEverything is alrightBreatheEvery little piece of me, you’ll seeEverything is alrightIf I just breatheWell it’s all so overratedYou’re not sayin’ how you feelSo you end up watchin’ chances fadeAnd wonderin’ what’s realAnd I give it just a little timeI wonder if you realizeI’ve been waiting till I see it in your eyesIf I just breatheLet it fill the space between, I’ll knowEverything is alrightBreatheEvery little piece of me, you’ll seeEverything is alrightIf I just breathe, breatheShall I whisper in the dark?Hopin’ you hear me?Do you hear me?If I just breatheLet it fill the space between, I’ll knowEverything is alrightBreatheEvery little piece of me, you’ll seeEverything is alrightEverything is alrightIf I just breathe, breatheI’ve been driving for an hourJust talking to the rainShow LyricsSmile By Uncle KrackerThis is a song that always makes me smile, and even in a chemo infusion clinic the magic still works!\r\nYou’re better than the best\r\nI’m lucky just to linger in your light\r\nCooler than the flip side of my pillow, that’s right\r\nCompletely unaware\r\nNothing can compare to where you send me\r\nLets me know that it’s okay, yeah, it’s okay\r\nAnd the moments when my good times start to fadeYou make me smile like the sunFall out of bed, sing like a birdDizzy in my head, spin like a recordCrazy on a Sunday nightYou make me dance like a foolForget how to breatheShine like gold, buzz like a beeJust the thought of you can drive me wildOh, you make me smileEven when you’re goneSomehow you come alongJust like a flower poking through the sidewalk crackAnd just like thatYou steal away the rainAnd just like thatYou make me smile like the sunFall out of bed, sing like a birdDizzy in my head, spin like a recordCrazy on a Sunday nightYou make me dance like a foolForget how to breatheShine like gold, buzz like a beeJust the thought of you can drive me wildOh, you make me smileDon’t know how I lived without you‘Cause every time that I get around youI see the best of me inside your eyesYou make me smileYou make me dance like a foolForget how to breatheShine like gold, buzz like a beeJust the thought of you can drive me wildYou make me smile like the sunFall out of bed, sing like a birdDizzy in my head, spin like a recordCrazy on a Sunday nightYou make me dance like a foolForget how to breatheShine like gold, buzz like a beeJust the thought of you can drive me wildOh, you make me smile(Oh, you make me smile)Oh, you make me smile(Oh, you make me smile)Oh, you make me smileShow LyricsThings will work out in the endWhen you just live life, live wellTake your time, look after yourselfGive love, give wellThe only way to get there is to start by loving yourselfI’ve loved the songs of Chris de Burgh ever since Little Bert Montroy played me Don’t Pay The Ferryman, but although I love that song it’s a bit too dark for this playlist.  This one is much more uplifting and hopeful.  Most everyone knows the song Lady in Red.  I am grateful to Chris de Burgh because his lyrics for some of his best songs formed and inspired me to be a good mate, a good partner, and a good father.\r\nI am looking for me, said a man that I know\r\nI don’t know where to begin\r\nI see in the mirror that there’s somebody there\r\nBut I am not sure if it’s me, or it’s himI am looking for me, said the man that I knowI’m not sure how to explainSometimes it feels that I am only aliveWhen I’m out with my friends, I see me through their eyesBut oh, don’t worryEverything will be fineWhen you just live life, live wellTake your time, look after yourselfGive love, give wellI am looking for love, said the man that I knowBut I have been there beforeLove is an ocean where we sink or we swimIn spite of the dangers, we keep jumping inSo I told him, my friend, there are no guaranteesHow things will work out in the endOne day she’ll tell you, you’re the love of her lifeBut take it from me, that can change overnightBut oh, don’t worryEverything will be fineIf you just live life, live wellTake your time, look after yourselfGive love, give wellBut oh, don’t worryEverything will be fineNo, don’t hurryThings will work out in the endWhen you just live life, live wellTake your time, look after yourselfGive love, give wellThe only way to get there is to start by loving yourselfThe only way to get there is to start by loving yourselfShow LyricsWhen my sister returned from a year abroad in Seville, Spain she also brought me an album by the group Mecano and I loved their music instantly. I’ve tried to make another imperfect translation of this song.  The song turns on the Spanish phrase qué pesado which can mean “how heavy,” “how boring,” or “how annoying” or possibly all three in this context. In any case, it’s funny how our mind focuses too much on grieving our losses and not enough on being thankful for all we have going for us.  Don’t think too much about the past or the future, life is waiting.\r\nAy, qué pesado, qué pesado\r\n–Oh, how boring, how boring\r\nSiempre pensando en el pasado\r\n–always thinking about the past\r\nNo te lo pienses demasiado\r\n–don’t think about it too much\r\nQue la vida está esperando\r\n–that life is waiting\r\nAy, qué pesado, qué pesado\r\n–Oh, how boring, how boring\r\nSiempre pensando en el pasado\r\n–always thinking about the past\r\nNo te lo pienses demasiado\r\n–don’t think about it too much\r\nQue la vida está esperando\r\n–that life is waiting¿Cuánto tiempo hace falta?–How long does it take?Para que borres las heridas–For you to erase the woundsQue te hiciste en el amor–what did you do in love¿Cuántas veces te he dicho?–How many times have I told you?Que solo tú tienes la llave–That only you have the keyQue abre y cierra el dolor–That opens and closes the painMira que hemos hablado–look what we talked aboutQue los recuerdos son mentiras–that memories are liesY que inundan la razón–and they inundate reasonAy, qué pesado, qué pesado–Oh, how boring, how boringSiempre pensando en el pasado–always thinking about the pastNo te lo pienses demasiado–don’t think about it too muchQue la vida está esperando–that life is waitingAy, qué pesado, qué pesado–Oh, how boring, how boringSiempre pensando en el pasado–always thinking about the pastNo te lo pienses demasiado–don’t think about it too muchQue la vida está esperando–that life is waitingNo hay que esperar milagros–don’t expect miraclesPorque tampoco los pedías–Because you didn’t ask for them eitherCuando hiciste el amor–when you made loveNo debiste hacer planes–you shouldn’t have made plansTú no decides el futuro–You don’t decide the futureCuando se trata de dos–when it comes to twoMira que hemos hablado–look what we talked aboutQue los recuerdos son mentiras–that memories are liesY que inundan la razón–and that they inundate reasonAy, qué pesado, qué pesado–Oh, how boring, how boringSiempre pensando en el pasado–always thinking about the pastNo te lo pienses demasiado–don’t think about it too muchQue la vida está esperando–that life is waitingAy, qué pesado, qué pesado–Oh, how boring, how boringSiempre pensando en el pasado–always thinking about the pastNo te lo pienses demasiado–don’t think about it too muchQue la vida está esperando–that life is waitingShow LyricsHappy by Pharrell WilliamsOf course this song is included because it makes me happy and is a rare song that inspires me to dance. \r\nIt might seem crazy what I am about to say\r\nSunshine she’s here, you can take a break\r\nI’m a hot air balloon that could go to space\r\nWith the air, like I don’t care baby by the wayBecause I’m happyClap along if you feel like a room without a roofBecause I’m happyClap along if you feel like happiness is the truthBecause I’m happyClap along if you know what happiness is to youBecause I’m happyClap along if you feel like that’s what you wanna doHere come bad news talking this and thatYeah, give me all you got, don’t hold backYeah, well I should probably warn you I’ll be just fineYeah, no offense to you don’t waste your timeHere’s why:(Because I’m happy)Clap along if you feel like a room without a roof(Because I’m happy)Clap along if you feel like happiness is the truth(Because I’m happy)Clap along if you know what happiness is to you(Because I’m happy)Clap along if you feel like that’s what you wanna do(Happy, Ugh)Bring me down(Happy)Can’t nothing, bring me downMy Love is too high to bring me downCan’t nothing, bring me downI said:(Tell You ‘Bout, Ugh)Bring me downCan’t nothing, bring me downMy Love is too high to bring me downCan’t nothing, bring me downI said:(Because I’m happy)Clap along if you feel like a room without a roof(Because I’m happy)Clap along if you feel like happiness is the truth(Because I’m happy)Clap along if you know what happiness is to you(Because I’m happy)Clap along if you feel like that’s what you wanna do(Because I’m happy)Clap along if you feel like a room without a roof(Because I’m happy)Clap along if you feel like happiness is the truth(Because I’m happy)Clap along if you know what happiness is to you(Because I’m happy)Clap along if you feel like that’s what you wanna do(Happy, happy, happy, happy)Bring me down…can’t nothing…(Happy, happy, happy, happy)Bring me down… my love is too high…(Happy, happy, happy, happy)Bring me down… can’t nothing…(Happy, happy, happy, happy)Bring me down, I saidBecause I’m happyClap along if you feel like a room without a roofBecause I’m happyClap along if you feel like happiness is the truthBecause I’m happyClap along if you know what happiness is to youBecause I’m happyClap along if you feel like that’s what you wanna doBecause I’m happyClap along if you feel like a room without a roofBecause I’m happyClap along if you feel like happiness is the truthBecause I’m happyClap along if you know what happiness is to youBecause I’m happyClap along if you feel like that’s what you wanna doCome on! (Echoed)Show LyricsAnother happy song!  It’s a little bittersweet to see Robin Williams appear in the official video of this song.  I spend a lot of time lately not worrying and being happy.Here’s a little song I wroteYou might want to sing it note for noteDon’t worry, be happyIn every life we have some troubleBut when you worry you make it doubleDon’t worry, be happyDon’t worry, be happy nowdon’t worry(Ooh, ooh ooh ooh oo-ooh ooh oo-ooh) be happy(Ooh, ooh ooh ooh oo-ooh ooh oo-ooh) don’t worry, be happy(Ooh, ooh ooh ooh oo-ooh ooh oo-ooh) don’t worry(Ooh, ooh ooh ooh oo-ooh ooh oo-ooh) be happy(Ooh, ooh ooh ooh oo-ooh ooh oo-ooh) don’t worry, be happyAin’t got no place to lay your headSomebody came and took your bedDon’t worry, be happyThe landlord say your rent is lateHe may have to litigateDon’t worry, be happyOh, ooh ooh ooh oo-ooh ooh oo-ooh don’t worry, be happyHere I give you my phone number, when you worry, call me, I make you happy, don’t worry, be happy)Don’t worry, be happyAin’t got no cash, ain’t got no styleAin’t got no gal to make you smileDon’t worry, be happy‘Cause when you worry your face will frownAnd that will bring everybody downSo don’t worry, be happyDon’t worry, be happy now(Ooh, ooh ooh ooh oo-ooh ooh oo-ooh) don’t worry(Ooh, ooh ooh ooh oo-ooh ooh oo-ooh) be happy(Ooh, ooh ooh ooh oo-ooh ooh oo-ooh) don’t worry, be happy(Ooh, ooh ooh ooh oo-ooh ooh oo-ooh) don’t worry(Ooh, ooh ooh ooh oo-ooh ooh oo-ooh) be happy(Ooh, ooh ooh ooh oo-ooh ooh oo-ooh) don’t worry, be happyNow there, is this song I wroteI hope you learned note for noteLike good little children, don’t worry, be happyNow listen to what I said, in your life expect some troubleWhen you worry you make it doubleBut don’t worry, be happy, be happy nowdon’t worry(Ooh, ooh ooh ooh oo-ooh ooh oo-ooh) be happy(Ooh, ooh ooh ooh oo-ooh ooh oo-ooh) don’t worry, be happydon’t worry(Ooh, ooh ooh ooh oo-ooh ooh oo-ooh) be happy(Ooh, ooh ooh ooh oo-ooh ooh oo-ooh) don’t worry, be happydon’t worry, don’t worry(Ooh, ooh ooh ooh oo-ooh ooh oo-ooh) don’t worry, don’t do it, be happy(Ooh, ooh ooh ooh oo-ooh ooh oo-ooh) put a smile in your face(Ooh, ooh ooh ooh oo-ooh ooh oo-ooh) don’t bring everybody down like thisdon’t worry(Ooh, ooh ooh ooh oo-ooh ooh oo-ooh) it will soon pass, whatever it is(Ooh, ooh ooh ooh oo-ooh ooh oo-ooh) don’t worry, be happy(Ooh, ooh ooh ooh oo-ooh ooh oo-ooh) I’m not worried, I’m happyShow LyricsShake It by Metro StationIt’s not fair of the playlist to have gone totally in the direction of perky dance songs, especially in an chemo infusion clinic, but maybe getting the blood moving is the best way for the drugs to work.Let’s drop!Yeah, come onShake, shakeI’ll take you home if you don’t leave me at the front doorYour body’s cold but girl we’re getting so warmAnd I was thinking of ways that I could get insideTonight you’re falling in love, let me go nowThis feeling’s tearing me up, here we go nowNow if she does it like this, will you do it like that?Now if she touches like this, will you touch her right back?Now if she moves like this, will you move her like that?Come on, shake shake, shake shake, a-shake itShake shake, shake shake, a-shake itShake shake, shake shake, a-shake itShake shake, shake shake, a-shake itShake shake, shake shake, a-shake itYour lips tremble but your eyes are in a straight stareWe’re on the bed but your clothes are laying right thereAnd I was thinking of places that I could hideTonight you’re falling in love, let me go nowThis feeling’s tearing me up, here we go nowNow if she does it like this, will you do it like that?Now if she touches like this, will you touch her right back?Now if she moves like this, will you move her like that?Come on, shake shake, shake shake, a-shake itShake shake, shake shake, a-shake itShake shake, shake shake, a-shake itShake shake, shake shake, a-shake itShake shake, shake shake, a-shake itI saw you dancing and I couldn’t get you off my mindI could tell that you could tell that I was taking my timeBut I was thinking of ways to get you staying the nightYour body’s shaking, tell me off so I can turn off the lightsNow if she does it like this, will you do it like that?Now if she touches like this, will you touch her right back?Now if she moves like this, will you move her like that?Come on, shake shake, shake shake, a-shake itShake shake, shake shake, a-shake itShake shake, shake shake, a-shake itShake shake, shake shake, a-shake itShake shake, shake shake, a-shake itShake shake, shake shake, a-shake itShake shake, shake shake, a-shake itShake shake, shake shake, a-shake itShake shake, shake shake, a-shake itShow LyricsMore uplifting groovy music!  Someone at the pool hall loves this song and it plays on the jukebox almost every week at league night.  It reminds me of the fun of hanging out with my friends and having a good time.\r\nAw, ow!This hit, that ice coldMichelle Pfeiffer, that white goldThis one for them hood girlsThem good girls, straight masterpiecesStylin’, wilin’Livin’ it up in the cityGot Chucks on with Saint LaurentGotta kiss myself, I’m so prettyI’m too hot (hot damn)Uh, call the police and the firemanI’m too hot (hot damn)Make a dragon wanna retire, manI’m too hot (hot damn)Say my name, you know who I amI’m too hot (hot damn)And my band ’bout that moneyBreak it downGirls hit your hallelujah (woo)Girls hit your hallelujah (woo)Girls hit your hallelujah (woo)‘Cause uptown funk gon’ give it to you (woo)(‘Cause uptown funk gon’ give it to you)‘Cause uptown funk gon’ give it to youSaturday night and we in the spotDon’t believe me just watch, come on!(ya) Don’t believe me just watch, uh(ya) Don’t believe me just watch, uhDon’t believe me just watch, uhDon’t believe me just watchDon’t believe me just watchHey, hey, hey, oh!Stop, wait a minuteFill my cup, put some liquor in itTake a sip, sign the checkJulio, get the stretchRide to Harlem, HollywoodJackson, MississippiIf we show up, we gon’ show outSmoother than a fresh jar o’ SkippyI’m too hot (hot damn)Call the police and the firemanI’m too hot (hot damn)Make a dragon wanna retire, manI’m too hot (too hot, hot damn, hot damn)Bitch, say my name you know who I amI’m too hot (hot damn)Uh, and my band ’bout that moneyBreak it downGirls hit your hallelujah (woo)Girls hit your hallelujah (woo)Girls hit your hallelujah (woo)‘Cause uptown funk gon’ give it to you (woo)(‘Cause uptown funk gon’ give it to you)‘Cause uptown funk gon’ give it to youSaturday night and we in the spotDon’t believe me just watch, come on!(ya) Don’t believe me just watch, uh(ya) Don’t believe me just watch, uhDon’t believe me just watch, uhDon’t believe me just watchDon’t believe me just watchHey, hey, hey, oh!Before we leaveLemme tell y’all a lil’ somethin’Uptown funk you upUptown funk you upUptown funk you upUptown funk you up, uhI said, uptown funk you upUptown funk you up, uhUptown funk you upUptown funk you upCome on, dance, jump on itIf you sexy, then flaunt itIf you freaky, then own itDon’t brag about it, come show meCome on, dance, jump on itIf you sexy, then flaunt itWell, it’s Saturday night and we in the spotDon’t believe me, just watch, come on(Ya) Don’t believe me just watch, uh(Ya) Don’t believe me just watch, uhDon’t believe me just watch, uhDon’t believe me just watchDon’t believe me just watchHey, hey, hey, oh!Uptown funk you up (woo, come on)Uptown funk you up (hey, say what?)Uptown funk you up (hey)Uptown funk you up (come on)Uptown funk you up (woo, come on)Uptown funk you up (hey, say what?)Uptown funk you up (hey)Uptown funk you up (come on)Uptown funk you up (woo, come on)Uptown funk you up (hey, say what?)Uptown funk you up (hey)Uptown funk you up (come on)Uptown funk you up (ah)Uptown funk you up (say what?)Uptown funk you upAw, ow!Show LyricsGrowing up in the disco days, this song always grabbed my attention when it came on. It is a snapshot of my childhood and I remember the fun of grown-ups dancing and grooving to the music. I always thought it was a good day when the adults took a break from being so serious about everything.One, twoAh, freak out!Le freak, c’est chicFreak out!Ah, freak out!Le freak, c’est chicFreak out!Ah, freak out!Le freak, c’est chicFreak out!Ah, freak out!Le freak, c’est chicFreak out!Have you heard about the new dance craze?Listen to us, I’m sure you’ll be amazedBig fun to be had by everyoneIt’s up to you, it surely can be doneYoung and old are doing it, I’m toldJust one try and you too will be soldIt’s called ‘Le Freak’, they’re doing it night and dayAllow us, we’ll show you the wayAh, freak out!Le freak, c’est chicFreak out!Ah, freak out!Le freak, c’est chicFreak out!Ah, freak out!Le freak, c’est chicFreak out!Ah, freak out!Le freak, c’est chicFreak out!All that pressure got you downHas your head been spinning all around?Feel the rhythm, check the rhymeCome on along and have a real good timeLike the days of Stomping at the SavoyNow we “freak, ” oh, what a joyJust come on down to the fifty fourFind your spot out on the floorAh, freak out!Le freak, c’est chicFreak out!Ah, freak out!Le freak, c’est chicFreak out!Ah, freak out!Le freak, c’est chicFreak out!Ah, freak out!Le freak, c’est chicFreak out!Now freakI said freakNow freakAll that pressure got you downHas your head been spinning all around?Feel the rhythm, check the rhymeCome on along and have a real good timeLike the days of Stomping at the SavoyNow we “freak, ” oh, what a joyJust come on down to the fifty fourFind your spot out on the floorAh, freak out!Le freak, c’est chicFreak out!Ah, freak out!Le freak, c’est chicFreak out!Ah, freak out!Le freak, c’est chicFreak out!Ah, freak out!Le freak, c’est chicFreak out!Ah, freak out!Le freak, c’est chicFreak out!Ah, freak out!Le freak, c’est chicFreak out!Ah, freak out!Le freak, c’est chicFreak out!Ah, freak out!Le freak, c’est chicFreak out!…Show LyricsThis is by far my favorite Stevie Wonder song, I think it is brilliant. When you believe in things you don’t understand, like chemotherapy drugs, then you suffer superstition.  One day we’re going to beat the cancer thing and we will look back and shudder when we think what patients had to go through to beat it.\r\nVery superstitious, writing’s on the wall\r\nVery superstitious, ladders bout’ to fall\r\nThirteen month old baby broke the lookin’ glass\r\nSeven years of bad luck, the good things in your pastWhen you believe in things that you don’t understandThen you sufferSuperstition ain’t the wayVery superstitious, wash your face and handsRid me of the problem, do all that you canKeep me in a daydream, keep me goin’ strongYou don’t wanna save me, sad is my songWhen you believe in things you don’t understandThen you sufferSuperstition ain’t the way, yeah, yeahVery superstitious, nothin’ more to sayVery superstitious, the devil’s on his wayThirteen month old baby broke the lookin’ glassSeven years of bad luck, good things in your pastWhen you believe in things that you don’t understandThen you sufferSuperstition ain’t the way, no, no, noShow LyricsNot the deepest philosophical song ever written, but you don’t need to think when you get down.\r\nBurn baby burn\r\nBurn baby burn\r\nBurn baby burn\r\nBurn baby burn\r\nBurnin’To mass fires, yesOne hundred stories highPeople gettin’ loose y’allGettin’ down on the roof, do you hear?The folks was flamingOut of controlIt was so entertainin’When the boogie started to explodeI heard somebody sayBurn baby burn, disco infernoBurn baby burn, burn that mama downBurn baby burn, disco infernoBurn baby burn, burn that mama downBurnin’SatisfactionCame in the chain reaction(Burnin’)I couldn’t get enoughTill I had to self-destroyThe heat was on(Burnin’)Rising to the topEverybody’s goin’ strongAnd that is when my spark got hotI heard somebody sayBurn baby burn, disco infernoBurn baby burn, burn that mama down, yoBurn baby burn, disco infernoBurn baby burn, burn that mama downBurnin’Up above my head, I hear music in the airI hear musicThat makes me knowThere’s somebody somewhereSatisfactionCame in a chain reaction, do you hear?I couldn’t get enoughSo I had to self destructThe heat was onRising to the topEverybody’s goin’ strongThat is when my spark got hotI heard somebody sayBurn baby burn, disco infernoBurn baby burn, burn that mama downBurn baby burn, disco inferno, yeahBurn baby burn, burn that mama downGet itBurn baby burnBurn baby burn, burn that mama downBurn baby burn, disco infernoBurn baby burnShow LyricsWhen we returned from Japan and lived in Norfolk, Virginia, we got to spend some quality time with my Aunt Emy who was in the Navy, stationed nearby. She took us to movies and for some reason this song always came on the radio on the way.  We all loved it.Since we moved around a lot in the Army, it was a special treat to get to spend any time with our extended family and we couldn’t spend enough time with our fun-loving aunt to make up for all the time we missed.\r\nGotta make a move to a\r\ntown that’s right for me\r\nTown to keep me movin’\r\nKeep me groovin’ with some energyWell, I talk about itTalk about itTalk about itTalk about itTalk about, Talk aboutTalk about movinGotta move onGotta move onGotta move onWon’t you take me toFunkytownWon’t you take me toFunkytownWon’t you take me toFunkytownWon’t you take me toFunkytownWon’t you take me toFunkytownWon’t you take me toFunkytownWon’t you take me toFunkytownWon’t you take me toFunkytownGotta make a move to atown that’s right for meTown to keep me movin’Keep me groovin’ with some energyWell, I talk about itTalk about itTalk about itTalk about itTalk about, Talk aboutTalk about movinGotta move onGotta move onGotta move onShow LyricsI’m a fan of Rick James and this is one of my favorite songs.\r\nGonna tell Aunt Mary ’bout Uncle John\r\nHe claimed he has a misery\r\nBut he has a lotta fun\r\nOh, baby\r\nYes, baby\r\nWooh, baby\r\nHavin’ me some fun tonight, yeahWell, Long Tall Sally, she’sBuilt for speed, she gotEverything that Uncle John needOh, babyYes, babyWooh, babyHavin’ me some fun tonight, yeahWell, I saw Uncle John with bald-head SallyHe saw Aunt Mary comin’And he jumped back in the alleyOh, babyYes, babyWooh, babyHavin’ me some fun tonight, yeahOww!Well, Long Tall Sally, she’sBuilt for speed, she gotEverything that Uncle John needOh, babyYes, babyWooh, babyHavin’ me some fun tonight, yeahWell, I saw Uncle John with bald-head SallyHe saw Aunt Mary comin’And he jumped back in the alleyOh, babyYes, babyWooh, babyHavin’ me some fun tonight, yeahWe gonna have some fun tonightGonna have some fun tonight, woohHave some fun tonightEverything’s all rightHave some funHave me some fun tonightShow LyricsAnother one by Rick James, I know it’s not cool to have two in a row from the same artist in a playlist but these kind of want to be together.\r\nShe’s a very kinky girl\r\nThe kind you don’t take home to mother\r\nShe will never let your spirits down\r\nOnce you get her off the street, ow girlShe likes the boys in the bandShe says that I’m her all-time favouriteWhen I make my move to her room, it’s the right timeShe’s never hard to pleaseOh, noThat girl is pretty wild now (the girl’s a super freak)The kind of girl you read about (in new-wave magazines)That girl is pretty kinky (the girl’s a super freak)I really love to taste her (every time we meet)She’s alright, she’s alrightThat girl’s alright with meYeah, hey, hey, hey, hey!She’s a super freak, super freakShe’s super-freaky and youngEverybody singSuper freak, super freakShe’s a very special girl (the kind of girl you want to know)From her head down to her toenails (down to her feet)Yeah, she’ll wait for me at backstage with her girlfriendsIn a limousine (going back in Chinatown)“Three’s not a crowd to her, ” she says (ménage à trois ooh, la, la)Room 714, I’ll be waitingWhen I get there she’s got incense, wine, and candlesIt’s such a freaky sceneThat girl is pretty kinky (the girl’s a super freak)The kind of girl you read about (in new-wave magazines)That girl is pretty wild now (the girl’s a super freak)I really like to taste her (every time we meet)She’s alright, she’s alrightThat girl’s alright with meYeah, hey, hey, hey, hey!She’s a super freak, super freakShe’s super-freaky, and youngTemptations singOh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-ohSuper freak, super freakThat girl’s a super freakOh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-ohShe’s a very kinky girlThe kind you won’t take home to motherAnd she will never let your spirits downOnce you get her off the streetBlow DerickShow Lyrics\r\nOne, two, three, uhMy baby don’t mess aroundBecause she loves me soAnd this I know fo sho (uh)But does she really wannaBut can’t stand to see me walk out the door? (Ah)Don’t try to fight the feelingBecause the thought alone is killin’ me right now (uh)Thank God for Mom and DadFor sticking two together‘Cause we don’t know how (c’mon)Hey ya! Hey ya!Hey ya! Hey ya!Hey ya! Hey ya!Hey ya! Hey ya!You think you’ve got itOh, you think you’ve got itBut got it just don’t get it ’til there’s nothin’ at allWe get togetherOh, we get togetherBut separate’s always better when there’s feelings involvedIf what they say is“Nothing is forever”Then what makes, then what makesThen what makes, then what makes (what makes, what makes)Love the exception?So why, oh, why, ohWhy, oh, why, oh, why, ohAre we so in denial when we know we’re not happy here?(Y’all don’t want to hear me, you just want to dance)Hey ya! (Uh oh) Hey ya! (Uh oh)Don’t want to meet your daddyHey ya! (Uh oh)Just want you in my Caddy (Uh oh)Hey ya! (Uh oh)Don’t want to meet your mamaHey ya! (Uh oh)Just want to make you cum-a (Uh oh)Hey ya! (Uh oh)I’m, I’m, I’m just being honest (Uh oh)I’m just being honestHey! Alright nowAlright now, fellas (Yeah?)Now, what cooler than being cool? (Ice cold!)I can’t hear youI say what’s, what’s cooler than being cool? (Ice cold!)Alright, alright, alright, alright, alrightAlright, alright, alright, alright, alrightAlright, alright, alright, alrightOkay, now ladies (Yeah?)Now, we gon’ break this thang down in just a few secondsNow, don’t have me break this thang down for nothin’Now, I want to see y’all on y’all baddest behaviorLend me some sugar, I am your neighborAh! Here we goShake it, shake, shake it, shake it, shake, shake it (Uh oh)Shake it, shake, shake it, shake it, shake it (Uh oh)Shake it like a Polaroid picture, hey ya!Shake it, shake, shake it, shake it, shake, shake itShake it, shake it, shake it, sugarShake it like a Polaroid pictureNow, all Beyonce’s, and Lucy Liu’sAnd baby dollsGet on the floorGet on the floor, you know what to doYou know what to doYou know what to doHey ya! (Uh oh) Hey ya! (Uh oh)Hey ya! (Uh oh) Hey ya! (Uh oh)Hey ya! (Uh oh) Hey ya! (Uh oh)Hey ya! (Uh oh) Hey ya! (Uh oh)Show LyricsGet Lucky by Daft Punk with Pharrell Williams and Nile RogersThis is a favorite song in our family but the kids once told me they were troubled by the lyrics when the robot-voice comes in and says, “We’ll rob a Mexican.”  That just isn’t very nice.  I explained that the Daft Punk voices are saying “We’re up all night to get lucky,” but now I can’t hear the lyrics any other way.\r\nLike the legend of the Phoenix, huh\r\nAll ends with beginnings\r\nWhat keeps the planet spinning, ah\r\nThe force from the beginning, hm, loveWe’ve come too farTo give up who we areSo let’s raise the barAnd our cups to the starsShe’s up all night ’til the sunI’m up all night to get someShe’s up all night for good funI’m up all night to get luckyWe’re up all night ’til the sunWe’re up all night to get someWe’re up all night for good funWe’re up all night to get luckyWe’re up all night to get luckyWe’re up all night to get luckyWe’re up all night to get luckyWe’re up all night to get luckyThe present has no rhythmYour gift keeps on givin’What is this I’m feeling?If you wanna leave I’m with it, ahWe’ve come too farTo give up who we areSo let’s raise the barAnd our cups to the starsShe’s up all night ’til the sunI’m up all night to get someShe’s up all night for good funI’m up all night to get luckyWe’re up all night ’til the sunWe’re up all night to get someWe’re up all night for good funWe’re up all night to get luckyWe’re up all night to get luckyWe’re up all night to get luckyWe’re up all night to get luckyWe’re up all night to get luckyShe’s up all night ’til the sunI’m up all night to get someShe’s up all night for good funI’m up all night to get luckyWe’re up all night ’til the sunWe’re up all night to get someWe’re up all night for good funWe’re up all night to get luckyWe’re up all night to get luckyWe’re up all night to get luckyWe’re up all night to get luckyWe’re up all night to get luckyShe’s up all night ’til the sunI’m up all night to get someShe’s up all night for good funI’m up all night to get luckyWe’re up all night ’til the sunWe’re up all night to get someWe’re up all night for good funWe’re up all night to get luckyWe’re up all night to get luckyWe’re up all night to get luckyWe’re up all night to get luckyWe’re up all night to get luckyWe’re up all night to get…We’re up all night to get…We’re up all night to get…We’re up all night to get…We’re up all night to get…We’re up all night to get…We’re up all night to get…We’re up all night to get…We’re up all night to get (together)We’re up all night to get (let’s get funked again)We’re up all night to get funkyWe’re up all night to get luckyWe’re up all night to get luckyWe’re up all night to get luckyWe’re up all night to get luckyWe’re up all night to get luckyWe’re up all night to get luckyWe’re up all night to get luckyWe’re up all night to get luckyWe’re up all night to get luckyWe’ve come too farTo give up who we areSo let’s raise the barAnd our cups to the starsShe’s up all night ’til the sunI’m up all night to get someShe’s up all night for good funI’m up all night to get luckyWe’re up all night ’til the sunWe’re up all night to get someWe’re up all night for good funWe’re up all night to get luckyWe’re up all night to get luckyWe’re up all night to get luckyWe’re up all night to get luckyWe’re up all night to get luckyWe’re up all night to get luckyWe’re up all night to get luckyWe’re up all night to get luckyWe’re up all night to get luckyWe’re up all night to get luckyWe’re up all night to get luckyWe’re up all night to get luckyWe’re up all night to get luckyWe’re up all night to get luckyWe’re up all night to get luckyWe’re up all night to get luckyWe’re up all night to get luckyShow LyricsThis video is probably NSFW and in poor taste, but I love the enthusiasm of this song and its tongue-in-cheek approach to having a good time. I didn’t notice until just now that Wilmer Valderrama from NCIS is in the music video.  Yep, I have a risqué side. Get used to it.\r\nYeah, yeah\r\nWhen I walk on by, girls be looking like “Damn, he fly!”\r\nI pay to the beat, walking down the street in my new Le Freak, yeah\r\nThis is how I roll, animal print pants outta control\r\nIt’s Redfoo with the big afro\r\nAnd like Bruce Leroy I got the glowGirl, look at that bodyGirl, look at that bodyGirl, look at that bodyI work outGirl, look at that bodyGirl, look at that bodyGirl, look at that bodyI work outWhen I walk in the spot, this is what I seeEverybody stops and they staring at meI got a passion in my pants and I ain’t afraid to show itShow it, show it, show itI’m sexy and I know itI’m sexy and I know it, yoWhen I’m at the mall, security just can’t fight them offAnd when I’m at the beach, I’m in a Speedo trying to tan my cheeks, (what?)This is how I roll, come on ladies it’s time to goWe headed to the bar, baby don’t be nervousNo shoes, no shirt and I still get service (what?)Girl, look at that bodyGirl, look at that bodyGirl, look at that bodyI work outGirl, look at that bodyGirl, look at that bodyGirl, look at that bodyI work outWhen I walk in the spot, this is what I seeEverybody stops and they staring at meI got a passion in my pants and I ain’t afraid to show itShow it, show it, show itI’m sexy and I know it, heyI’m sexy and I know itCheck it outCheck it outWiggle, wiggle, wiggle, wiggle, wiggle, yeahWiggle, wiggle, wiggle, wiggle, wiggle, yeahWiggle, wiggle, wiggle, wiggle, wiggle, yeahWiggle, wiggle, wiggle, wiggle, yeah yeah Do the wiggle, manI do the wiggle, man, yeahI’m sexy and I know itHey, yeahGirl, look at that bodyGirl, look at that bodyGirl, look at that bodyI work outGirl, look at that bodyGirl, look at that bodyGirl, look at that bodyI work outI’m sexy and I know itShow LyricsIt’s simply not possible to smile at this song and want to dance like no one’s watching.  This is true even in a chemotherapy infusion clinic.\r\nI’m too sexy for my love\r\nToo sexy for my love\r\nLove’s going to leave meI’m too sexy for my shirtToo sexy for my shirtSo sexy it hurtsAnd I’m too sexy for MilanToo sexy for MilanNew York and JapanAnd I’m too sexy for your partyToo sexy for your partyNo way I’m disco dancingI’m a model, you know what I meanAnd I do my little turn on the catwalkYeah, on the catwalk, on the catwalk, yeahI do my little turn on the catwalkI’m too sexy for my carToo sexy for my carToo sexy by farAnd I’m too sexy for my hatToo sexy for my hatWhat d’ya think about that?I’m a model, you know what I meanAnd I do my little turn on the catwalkYeah, on the catwalk, on the catwalk, yeahI shake my little tush on the catwalkI’m too sexy for myToo sexy for myToo sexy for my‘Cause I’m a model, you know what I meanAnd I do my little turn on the catwalkYeah, on the catwalk, yeah, on the catwalk, yeahI shake my little tush on the catwalkI’m too sexy for my catToo sexy for my catPoor pussy, poor pussy catI’m too sexy for my loveToo sexy for my loveLove’s going to leave meAnd I’m too sexy for this songShow LyricsI don’t think I’ll ever forget my friend Brandy singing this song at karaoke on Halloween, dressed as one of the PowerPuff girls.  Well done!  Permanent memory achieved!\r\nLay where you’re laying, don’t make a sound\r\nI know they’re watching, they’re watching\r\nAll the commotion, the kiddie like play\r\nHas people talking, talkingYou, your sex is on fireThe dark of the alley, the breaking of dayThe head while I’m driving, I’m drivingSoft lips are open, knuckles are paleFeels like you’re dying, you’re dyingYou, your sex is on fireConsumed with what’s to transpireHot as a fever, rattling bonesI could just taste it, taste itIf it’s not forever, if it’s just tonightOh, it’s still the greatest, the greatest, the greatestYou, your sex is on fireAnd you, your sex is on fireConsumed with what’s to transpireAnd you, your sex is on fireConsumed with what’s to transpireShow LyricsThis is one of the catchiest earworm songs I know from my childhood, and of course in modern days I can’t hear it without thinking of that wonderful scene in The Full Monty in the unemployment office.  It’s one of my favorite movies.  You do YOU, gents!\r\nSittin’ here eatin’ my heart out waitin’\r\nWaitin’ for some lover to call\r\nDialed about a thousand numbers lately\r\nAlmost rang the phone off the wallLookin’ for some hot stuff, baby, this evenin’I need some hot stuff, baby, tonightI want some hot stuff, baby, this evenin’Gotta have some hot stuffGotta have some love tonightHot stuffBaby, babyBaby, baby (tonight)I need hot stuffBaby, babyBaby, baby (tonight)I want some hot stuffBaby, babyBaby, baby (tonight)I need hot stuffBaby, babyBaby, baby (tonight)Baby, babyBaby, baby (tonight)Baby, babyBaby, baby (tonight)Baby, babyBaby, baby (tonight)Baby, babyBaby, baby (tonight)Lookin’ for a lover who needs anotherDon’t want another night on my ownWanna share my love with a warm blooded loverWanna bring a wild man back homeGotta have some hot love, baby, this evenin’I need some hot stuff, baby, tonightI want some hot stuff, baby, this evenin’Got to have some lovin’Got to have love tonightHot stuffBaby, babyBaby, baby (tonight)I need hot stuffBaby, babyBaby, baby (tonight)I want some hot stuffBaby, babyBaby, baby (tonight)I need hot stuffBaby, babyBaby, baby (tonight)Looking for some hot stuffBaby, babyBaby, baby (tonight)I need some hot stuffBaby, babyBaby, baby (tonight)Looking for some hot stuffBaby, babyBaby, baby (tonight)I need hot stuffBaby, babyBaby, baby (tonight)Show LyricsAnother catchy tune I hear a lot in the pool hall every week, it’s hard not to dance to this tune.\r\nCan’t keep my hands to myself\r\nThink I’ll dust ’em off, put ’em back up on the shelf\r\nIn case my little baby girl is in need\r\nAm I coming out of left field?Ooh, I’m a rebel just for kicks, nowI been feeling it since 1966, nowMight be over now, but I feel it stillOoh, I’m a rebel just for kicks, nowLet me kick it like it’s 1986, nowMight be over now, but I feel it stillGot another mouth to feedLeave her with a baby sitter, mama, call the grave diggerGone with the fallen leavesAm I coming out of left field?Ooh, I’m a rebel just for kicks, nowI been feeling it since 1966, nowMighta had your fill, but you feel it stillOoh, I’m a rebel just for kicks, nowLet me kick it like it’s 1986, nowMight be over now, but I feel it stillWe could fight a war for peace(Ooh, I’m a rebel just for kicks, now)Give in to that easy livingGoodbye to my hopes and dreamsStop flipping for my enemiesWe could wave until the walls come down(Ooh, I’m a rebel just for kicks, now)It’s time to give a little tipKids in the middle, move over till it fallsDon’t bother meIs it coming?Is it coming?Is it coming?Is it coming?Is it coming?Is it coming back?Ooh, I’m a rebel just for kicks, yeahYour love is an abyss for my heart to eclipse, nowMight be over now, but I feel it stillOoh, I’m a rebel just for kicks, nowI’ve been feeling it since 1966, nowMight be over now, but I feel it stillOoh, I’m a rebel just for kicks, nowLet me kick it like it’s 1986, nowMight be over now, but I feel it stillMighta had your fill, but you feel it stillShow LyricsI love this catchy song and the confidence of the lyrics. The best way to hang on to love is to treat your partner better than anyone else possibly could.\r\nBaby, here I am, I’m a man on the scene\r\nI can give you what you want but you got to come home with me\r\nI’ve got some good old lovin’ and I got some more in store\r\nWhen I get through throwin’ it on you, you got to come back for moreBoys and things that come by the dozenThat ain’t nothin’ but drugstore lovin’Pretty little thing, let me light your candle‘Cause mama I’m sure hard to handle now, yessir’amAction speaks louder than words and I’m a man of great experienceI know you got another man but I can love you better than himTake my hand, don’t be afraid, I’m gonna prove every word I sayI’m advertising love for free, so you can place your ad with meBoys will come along, a dime by the dozenThat ain’t nothing but ten cent lovin’Pretty little thing, let me light your candle‘Cause mama I’m sure hard to handle now, yessir’amYeahHard to handle nowOh babyBaby, here I am, I’m a man on your sceneI can give you what you want but you got to come home with meI’ve got some good old lovin’ and I got some more in storeWhen I get through throwin’ it on you, you got to come a-runnin’ back for moreBoys will run along a dime by the dozenThat ain’t nothing but drugstore lovin’Pretty little thing, let me light your candle‘Cause mama I’m sure hard to handle now, yessir’amHardHard to handle nowOh yeah, yeah yeah yeahBoys will run along a dime by the dozenThat ain’t nothing but ten cent lovin’Pretty little thing, let me light your candle‘Cause mama I’m sure hard to handle now, yessir’amYeahSo hard to handle nowOh yeahBabyGood lovin’Baby, babyOh, good lovin’I need good lovin’I got to have it, oh yeahYeahSo hard to handle, now, yeahShow LyricsI love this classic tune dusted off in a high-energy style by Rednex.\r\nIf it hadn’t been for cotton-eyed Joe\r\nI’d been married long time ago\r\nWhere did you come from? Where did you go?\r\nWhere did you come from, cotton-eyed Joe?If it hadn’t been for cotton-eyed JoeI’d been married long time agoWhere did you come from? Where did you go?Where did you come from, cotton-eyed Joe?If it hadn’t been for cotton-eyed JoeI’d been married long time agoWhere did you come from? Where did you go?Where did you come from, cotton-eyed Joe?If it hadn’t been for cotton-eyed JoeI’d been married long time agoWhere did you come from? Where did you go?Where did you come from, cotton-eyed Joe?(Girls)He came to town like a midwinter stormHe rode through the fields so handsome and strongHis eyes was his tools and his smile was his gunBut all he had come for was having some funIf it hadn’t been for cotton-eyed JoeI’d been married long time agoWhere did you come from? Where did you go?Where did you come from, cotton-eyed Joe?If it hadn’t been for cotton-eyed JoeI’d been married long time agoWhere did you come from? Where did you go?Where did you come from, cotton-eyed Joe?(Girls)He brought disaster wherever he wentThe hearts of the girls was to hell broken sentThey all ran away so nobody would knowAnd left only men cause of cotton-eyed JoeIf it hadn’t been for cotton-eyed JoeI’d been married long time agoWhere did you come from? Where did you go?Where did you come from, cotton-eyed Joe?If it hadn’t been for cotton-eyed JoeI’d been married long time agoWhere did you come from? Where did you go?Where did you come from, cotton-eyed Joe?If it hadn’t been for cotton-eyed JoeI’d been married long time agoWhere did you come from? Where did you go?Where did you come from, cotton-eyed Joe?If it hadn’t been for cotton-eyed JoeI’d been married long time agoWhere did you come from? Where did you go?Where did you come from, cotton-eyed Joe?If it hadn’t been for cotton-eyed JoeI’d been married long time agoWhere did you come from? Where did you go?Where did you come from, cotton-eyed Joe?Show LyricsJig of Life by Kate BushNever, never say goodbyeTo my part of your life.Oh no, no, no, no, no!Never, never, never!Never, never let me go!Another amazing song by Kate Bush from her Hounds of Love album, it is especially appropriate for the chemotherapy setting and it practically begged to be included.\r\nHello, old lady.\r\nI know your face well.\r\nI know it well.She says,“Ooh-na-na-na-na-na-na-na-na!I’ll be sitting in your mirror.Now is the place where the crossroads meet.Will you look into the future?“Never, never say goodbyeTo my part of your life.No, no, no, no, no!Oh, oh, oh,“Let me live!”She said.“C’mon and let me live, girl!”She said,“C’mon and let me live, girl!”(“C’mon and let me live!”)“This moment in time,”(She said.)It doesn’t belong to you,”(She said,)It belongs to me,“And to your little boy and to your little girl,And the one hand clapping:Where on your palm is my little line,When you’re written in mineAs an old memory?Ooh, na-na-na-na-na-na-na-na-na-na-na-na-na-na-na-na-“Never, never say goodbyeTo my part of your life.Oh no, no, no, no, no!Never, never, never!Never, never let me go!”She said,“C’mon and let me live, girl!’(“C’mon and let me live!”)She said,“C’mon and let me live, girl!”(“C’mon and let me live!”)I put thismoment……………………………………….here.I put this moment…………………….here.I put this moment–“Over here!“Over here!Can’t you see where memories are kept bright?Tripping on the water like a laughing girl.Time in her eyes is spawning past life,One with the ocean and the woman unfurled,Holding all the love that waits for you here.Catch us now for I am your future.A kiss on the wind and we’ll make the land.Come over here to where When lingers,Waiting in this empty world,Waiting for Then, when the lifespray cools.For Now does ride in on the curl of the wave,And you will dance with me in the sunlit pools.We are of the going water and the gone.We are of water in the holy land of waterAnd all that’s to come runs inWith the thrust on the strand.”Show LyricsWhen one is feeling melodramatic, this catchy song always comes to mind.  It is a perfect title for a chemo playlist, but despite its dark opinions it’s just too catchy to leave off the list.\r\nThat’s great, it starts with an earthquake\r\nBirds and snakes, and aeroplanes\r\nAnd Lenny Bruce is not afraidEye of a hurricane, listen to yourself churnWorld serves its own needsDon’t mis-serve your own needsSpeed it up a notch, speed, grunt, no, strengthThe ladder starts to clatterWith a fear of height, down, heightWire in a fire, represent the seven gamesAnd a government for hire and a combat siteLeft her, wasn’t coming in a hurryWith the Furies breathing down your neckTeam by team, reporters baffled, trumped, tethered, croppedLook at that low plane, fine, thenUh oh, overflow, population, common groupBut it’ll do, save yourself, serve yourselfWorld serves its own needs, listen to your heart bleedTell me with the Rapture and the reverent in the right, rightYou vitriolic, patriotic, slam fight, bright lightFeeling pretty psychedIt’s the end of the world as we know itIt’s the end of the world as we know itIt’s the end of the world as we know it and I feel fineSix o’clock, T.V. hour, don’t get caught in foreign towerSlash and burn, return, listen to yourself churnLock him in uniform, book burning, bloodlettingEvery motive escalate, automotive incinerateLight a candle, light a motive, step down, step downWatch your heel crush, crush, uh ohThis means no fear, cavalier, renegade and steering clearA tournament, a tournament, a tournament of liesOffer me solutions, offer me alternatives and I declineIt’s the end of the world as we know it (I had some time alone)It’s the end of the world as we know it (I had some time alone)It’s the end of the world as we know it and I feel fine (time I had some time alone)I feel fine (I feel fine)It’s the end of the world as we know it (time I had some time alone)It’s the end of the world as we know it (time I had some time alone)It’s the end of the world as we know it and I feel fine (time I had some time alone)The other night I drifted nice continental drift divideMountains sit in a line, Leonard BernsteinLeonid Brezhnev, Lenny Bruce and Lester BangsBirthday party, cheesecake, jellybean, boomYou symbiotic, patriotic, slam but neck, right, rightIt’s the end of the world as we know it (time I had some time alone)It’s the end of the world as we know it (time I had some time alone)It’s the end of the world as we know it and I feel fine (time I had some time alone)It’s the end of the world as we know itIt’s the end of the world as we know itIt’s the end of the world as we know it and I feel fine (time I had some time alone)It’s the end of the world as we know it (time I had some time alone)It’s the end of the world as we know it (time I had some time alone)It’s the end of the world as we know it and I feel fine (time I had some time alone)It’s the end of the world as we know it (time I had some time alone)It’s the end of the world as we know it (time I had some time alone)It’s the end of the world as we know it and I feel fine (time I had some time alone)Show LyricsThis bluesy little tunePlayin’ all the timeSong that’s rollin’ through my headMakin’ me feel fineThe Asylum Street Spankers are one of my favorite bands and I was lucky to see them several times in person before they disbanded. They are such a talented group but a lot of their songs are heavily NSFW.  Not this one, though!  It’s probably their cleanest song.\r\nThis bluesy little tune\r\nPlayin’ all the time\r\nSong that’s rollin’ through my head\r\nMakin’ me feel fine\r\nFeelin’ fine, oh brother\r\nI’m walking up and down the line\r\nI’m feelin’ fine, oh people\r\nI’m singing up and down the lineMy old friend Johnny tells meThe world has got him downThrew his guitar up against the wallAnother guitar comes aroundComes around, oh brotherAnother guitar comes aroundComes around, oh peopleAnother guitar comes aroundThe people talk about leavingLeaving this old townThey say they’re fixing up the placeLooks like they’re tearin’ it downTearin’ it down, oh brotherThey’re tearin’ up on my home townTearin’ it down, oh peopleThey’re tearin’ up on my home townNow I don’t mind some changesAs long as it comes slowStart to beat the life right out of meIt’s time for me to goI got to go, oh brotherI’m looking up and down the lineI got to go, oh peopleI’m moving up and down the lineThis bluesy little tunePlayin’ all the timeSong that’s rollin’ through my headMakin’ me feel fineFeelin’ fine, oh peopleI’m walking up and down the lineI’m feelin’ fine, oh peopleI’m singing up and down the lineI’m feelin’ fine, oh peopleI’m singing up and down the lineShow LyricsAnother of my favorite bands, and even though the song is written about a lady, it’s especially nice to imagine that chemotherapy and surgery won’t let me down.  I would have all my playlist songs be by the Eagles, but they are too dark and snarky on the whole for chemotherapy.\r\nI like the way your sparkling earrings lay\r\nAgainst your skin, it’s so brown\r\nAnd I wanna sleep with you in the desert tonight\r\nWith a billion stars all around‘Cause I gotta peaceful easy feelingAnd I know you won’t let me down‘Cause I’m already standingOn the groundAnd I found out a long time agoWhat a woman can do to your soulOh, but she can’t take you any wayYou don’t already know how to goAnd I gotta peaceful easy feelingAnd I know you won’t let me down‘Cause I’m already standingOn the groundI get this feeling I may know youAs a lover and a friendBut this voice keeps whispering in my other earTells me I may never see you againShow LyricsIt’s funny how it’s the little things in lifeThat mean the mostNot where you live or what you driveOr the price tag on your clothesThere’s no dollar sign on a piece of mindYou know you’re in the right place in life when you get excited about the little things, and you prefer them to more complicated pleasures. This song has its heart in the right place and I enjoy its lively delivery.\r\nYou know I like my chicken fried\r\nAnd cold beer on a Friday night\r\nA pair of jeans that fit just right\r\nAnd the radio up\r\n(instrumental)\r\nWell, I was raised up\r\nBeneath the shade of a Georgia pine\r\nAnd that’s home you know\r\nSweet tea, pecan pie and homemade wine\r\nWhere the peaches grow\r\nAnd my house it’s not much to talk about\r\nBut it’s filled with love\r\nThat’s grown in southern groundAnd a little bit of chicken friedCold beer on a Friday nightA pair of jeans that fit just rightAnd the radio upI like to see the sunriseSee the love in my woman’s eyesFeel the touch of a precious childAnd know a mother’s loveIt’s funny how it’s the little things in lifeThat mean the mostNot where you live or what you driveOr the price tag on your clothesThere’s no dollar sign on a piece of mindThis I’ve come to knowSo if you agree, have a drink with meRaise your glasses for a toastTo a little bit of chicken friedCold beer on a Friday nightA pair of jeans that fit just rightAnd the radio upI like to see the sunriseSee the love in my woman’s eyesFeel the touch of a precious childAnd know a mother’s love(instrumental)I thank God for my lifeAnd for the stars and stripesMay freedom forever flyLet it ringSalute the ones who diedThe ones that give their livesSo we don’t have to sacrificeAll the things we loveLike our chicken friedAnd cold beer on a Friday nightA pair of jeans that fit just rightAnd the radio upI like to see the sunriseSee the love in my woman’s eyesFeel the touch of a precious childAnd know a mother’s loveGetcha little chicken friedAnd cold beer on a Friday nightA pair of jeans that fit just rightAnd the radio upI like to see the sunriseSee the love in my woman’s eyesFeel the touch of a precious childAnd know a mother’s loveShow LyricsThis is a catchy song with a good message of not smothering the one you love.  It seems to me that lots of people are too insecure and possessive in their relationships when really they should be less lazy and never stop being the best romantic partner they can be.\r\nYou see it all around you\r\nGood lovin’ gone bad\r\nAnd usually it’s too late when you\r\nRealize what you hadAnd my mind goes back to a girl I metSome years ago who told meJust hold on looselyBut don’t let goIf you cling too tightlyYou’re gonna lose controlYour baby needs someone to believe inAnd a whole lot of space to breathe inIt’s so damn easyWhen you feel her soft touchTo overprotect herTo love her too muchAnd my mind goes back to a girl I metSome years ago who told meJust hold on looselyBut don’t let goIf you cling too tightlyYou’re gonna lose controlYour baby needs someone to believe inAnd a whole lot of space to breathe inDon’t let her slip awaySentimental foolDon’t let your heart get in the wayYeah, yeah, yeahYou see it all around youGood lovin’ gone badAnd usually it’s too late when youRealize what you hadSo hold on looselyBut don’t let goIf you cling too tightlyYou’re gonna lose controlYour baby needs someone to believe inAnd a whole lot of space to breathe inSo hold on looselyBut don’t let goIf you cling too tightlyYou’re gonna lose itYou’re gonna lose controlYeah, yeah, yeah, yeahSo hold on looselyBut don’t let goIf you cling too tightlyYou’re gonna lose controlHold on looselyBut don’t let goIf you cling too tightly to herYou’re gonna lose control, yeah, yeah, yeahShow LyricsI’m a huge Kansas fan but Dust In The Wind seems like it would be a downer on a chemotherapy playlist.  This song is one of the most epic rock compositions ever made.  And the message is right there out of the gate:Carry on my wayward sonThere’ll be peace when you are doneLay your weary head to restDon’t you cry no moreOkay, maybe a little dark for the happy phase of the playlist.  I like to think of the peacefulness that will come when I am happily past this battle.\r\nCarry on my wayward son\r\nThere’ll be peace when you are done\r\nLay your weary head to rest\r\nDon’t you cry no moreOnce I rose above the noise and confusionJust to get a glimpse beyond this illusionI was soaring ever higherBut I flew too highThough my eyes could see I still was a blind manThough my mind could think I still was a mad manI hear the voices when I’m dreamingI can hear them sayCarry on my wayward sonThere’ll be peace when you are doneLay your weary head to restDon’t you cry no moreMasquerading as a man with a reasonMy charade is the event of the seasonAnd if I claim to be a wise man butIt surely means that I don’t knowOn a stormy sea of moving emotionTossed about I’m like a ship on the oceanI set a course for winds of fortuneBut I hear the voices sayCarry on my wayward sonThere’ll be peace when you are doneLay your weary head to restDon’t you cry no more, noCarry on, you will always rememberCarry on, nothing equals the splendorNow your life’s no longer emptySurely heaven waits for youCarry on my wayward sonThere’ll be peace when you are doneLay your weary head to restDon’t you cryDon’t you cry no more, no moreShow LyricsAnother great band, and I realize that as a northerner transplanted into the south for 40 years or so, I have a lot of upbeat southern anthems in my playlist.  I consider myself southern anyway: I was born in Aberdeen, Maryland at Kirk Army Hospital on the Aberdeen Proving Grounds.  And even though my Carolina friends snort milk out their nose whenever I say it, that means I was born in the South.\r\nRollin’ down a backwoods, Tennessee by-way,\r\nOne arm on the wheel.\r\nHoldin’ my lover with the other,\r\nA sweet, soft, southern thrill.\r\nWorked hard all week; got a little jingle,\r\nOn a Tennessee Saturday night.\r\nCouldn’t feel better, I’m together,\r\nWith my Dixieland Delight.Spend my dollar, parked in a holler,‘Neath the mountain moonlight.Hold her up tight,Make a little lovin’,A little turtle dovin’.On a Mason-Dixon night.Fits my life, oh so right,My Dixieland Delight.White-tail buck deer, munchin’ on clover,Red-tail hawk sittin’ on a limb.A chubby old groundhog, croakin’ bullfrog,Free as the feelin’ in the wind.Home grown country girl, gonna give me a whirl,On a Tennessee Saturday night.Lucky as a seven, livin’ in heaven,With my Dixieland Delight.Spend my dollar, parked in a holler,‘Neath the mountain moonlight.Hold her up tight, make a little lovin’,A little turtle dovin’.On a Mason-Dixon night.Fits my life, oh so right,My Dixieland Delight.Spend my dollar, parked in a holler,‘Neath the mountain moonlight.Hold her up tight, make a little lovin’,A little turtle dovin’.On a Mason-Dixon night.Fits my life, oh so right,My Dixieland Delight.Rollin’ down a backwoods Tennessee by way,One arm on the wheel.Holdin’ my lover…Show LyricsIn the last few years I’ve discovered Billy Strings and I enjoy his high-energy, very talented songwriting and performances.  He wrote this song for a competition and I remember coming across a video of him performing it for friends, and immediately loving this song and his style.\r\nI ain’t slept in seven days, haven’t ate in three\r\nMethamphetamine has got a damn good hold of me\r\nMy tweaker friends have got me to the point of no return\r\nI just took the lighter to the bulb and watched it burnThis life of sin has got me inWell, it’s got me back in prison once againI used my only phone call to contact my daddyI got 20 long years for some dust in a baggieWell, if I would have listened to what mom and papa saidI wouldn’t be locked up in prison, troubled in the headI took that little pop and suck until my mind was spunI got 20 years to sit and think of what I’ve doneThis life of sin has got me inWell, it’s got me back in prison once againI used my only phone call to contact my daddyI got 20 long years for some dust in a baggieSometimes, I sit and wonder where my little life went wrongThese old jailhouse blues have got me singing this old songMy life is a disaster, Lord and I feel so ashamedIn here where they call me by a number, not a nameThis life of sin has got me inWell, it’s got me back in prison once againI used my only phone call to contact my daddyI got 20 long years for some dust in a baggieI used my only phone call to contact my daddyI got 20 long years for some dust in a baggieShow LyricsDang Me by Roger MillerI grew up listening to Roger Miller as early as I can remember, and loving every single song, his quirky lyrics and his contagious guitar style.\r\nWell, here I sit high, gettin’ ideas\r\nAin’t nothin’ but a fool would live like this\r\nOut all night and runnin’ wild\r\nWoman’s sittin’ home with a month old childDang me, dang meThey oughta take a rope and hang meHigh from the highest treeWoman would you weep for me?Just sittin’ ’round drinkin’ with the rest of the guysSix rounds bought and I bought fiveI spent the groceries and a half the rentI like fourteen dollars havin’ twenty seven centsDang me, dang meThey oughta take a rope and hang meHigh from the highest treeWoman would you weep for me?They say roses are red and violets are purpleAnd sugar’s sweet and so is maple syrupWell I’m seventh out of seven sonsMy pappy was a pistol, I’m a son of a gunI said dang me, dang meThey oughta take a rope and hang meHigh from the highest treeWoman would you weep for me?Show Lyrics\r\nWell the South side of Chicago\r\nIs the baddest part of town\r\nAnd if you go down there\r\nYou better just beware\r\nOf a man named Leroy BrownNow Leroy more than troubleYou see he stand ’bout six foot fourAll the downtown ladies call him “Treetop Lover”All the men just call him “Sir”And he’s bad, bad Leroy BrownThe baddest man in the whole damn townBadder than old King KongMeaner than a junkyard dogNow Leroy he a gamblerAnd he like his fancy clothesAnd he like to wave his diamond ringsIn front of everybody’s noseHe got a custom ContinentalHe got an Eldorado tooHe got a 32 gun in his pocket for funHe got a razor in his shoeAnd he’s bad, bad Leroy BrownThe baddest man in the whole damn townBadder than old King KongMeaner than a junkyard dogWell Friday bout a week agoLeroy shootin’ diceAnd at the edge of the barSat a girl named DorisAnd ooh that girl looked niceWell he cast his eyes upon herAnd the trouble soon beganLeroy Brown he learned a lesson‘Bout messin’ with the wife of a jealous manAnd he’s bad, bad Leroy BrownThe baddest man in the whole damn townBadder than old King KongMeaner than a junkyard dogWell the two men took to fightin’And when they pulled them from the floorLeroy looked like a jigsaw puzzleWith a couple of pieces goneAnd he’s bad, bad Leroy BrownThe baddest man in the whole damn townBadder than old King KongMeaner than a junkyard dogAnd he’s bad, bad Leroy BrownThe baddest man in the whole damn townBadder than old King KongMeaner than a junkyard dogBadder than old King KongMeaner than a junkyard dogShow LyricsAnother of my favorite bands, and I will not stop believin’.\r\nJust a small town girl\r\nLivin’ in a lonely world\r\nShe took the midnight train goin’\r\nanywhereJust a city boyBorn and raised in south DetroitHe took the midnight train goin’anywhereA singer in a smoky roomA smell of wine and cheap perfumeFor a smile they can share the nightIt goes on and on and on and onStrangers waitingUp and down the boulevardTheir shadows searching in the nightStreetlight peopleLiving just to find emotionHiding somewhere in the nightWorking hard to get my fillEverybody wants a thrillPayin’ anything to roll the dice just one more timeSome will win, some will loseSome were born to sing the bluesOh, the movie never endsIt goes on and on and on and onStrangers waitingUp and down the boulevardTheir shadows searching in the nightStreetlights peopleLiving just to find emotionHiding somewhere in the nightDon’t stop believin’Hold on to that feelin’Streetlights peopleDon’t stop believin’Hold on to that feelin’Streetlights peopleDon’t stop believin’Hold on to that feelin’Streetlights peopleShow Lyrics\r\nI’d like to help you, doctor\r\nYes, I really, really would\r\nBut the din in my head\r\nIt’s too much and it’s no goodI’m standing in a windy tunnelShouting through the roarAnd I’d like to give the informationYou’re asking forBut blood makes noiseIt’s a ringing in my earBlood makes noiseAnd I can’t really hear youIn the thickening of fearI think that you might want to knowThe details and the factsBut there’s something in my bloodDenies the memory of the actsSo just forget it, DocI think it’s really cool that you’re concernedBut we’ll have to try againAfter the silence has returned‘Cause blood makes noiseIt’s a ringing in my earBlood makes noiseAnd I can’t really hear youIn the thickening of fearI’d like to help you, doctorYes, I really, really wouldBut the din in my headIt’s too much and it’s no goodBlood makes noiseIt’s a ringing in my earAnd I can’t really hear youIn the thickening of fearYes, blood makes noiseIt’s a ringing in my earAnd I can’t really hear youIn the thickening of fearBlood makes noiseBlood makes noiseBlood makes noiseBlood makes noiseShow LyricsThis song marks a transition to the third section of my chemotherapy playlist, populated mostly with love songs.  This is probably my favorite Sara Bareilles song, and the music video made me cry.\r\nLet the bough break let it come down crashing\r\nLet the sun fade out to a dark sky\r\nCan’t say I’d even notice it was absent\r\n‘Cause I could live by the light in your eyes\r\nI’ll unfold before you\r\nWhat I’ve strung together\r\nThe very first words of a lifelong love letterTell the world that we finally got it all rightI choose youI will become yours and you will become mineI choose youI choose youThere was a time when I would have believed themIf they told me you could not come true, just love’s illusionBut then you found me and everything changedAnd I believe in something againMy whole heart will be yours foreverThis is a beautiful startTo a lifelong love letterTell the world that we finally got it all rightI choose youI will become yours and you will become mineI choose youI choose youWe are not perfect we’ll learn from our mistakes and as long as it takes I willProve my love to youI am not scared of the elements I am underprepared but I am willingAnd even better, I get to be the other half of youTell the world that we finally got it all rightI choose youI will become yours and you will become mineI choose youI choose youI choose youShow LyricsThis song makes me vividly remember the angst you feel when the person you love is far away.\r\nMaking my way downtown\r\nWalking fast, faces pass and I’m homebound\r\nStaring blankly ahead\r\nJust making my way\r\nMaking a way through the crowdAnd I need youAnd I miss youAnd now I wonderIf I could fall into the skyDo you think time would pass me by?‘Cause you know I’d walk a thousand milesIf I could just see you tonightIt’s always times like theseWhen I think of youAnd wonder if you ever think of me‘Cause everything’s so wrong and I don’t belongLiving in your precious memory‘Cause I need youAnd I miss youAnd now I wonderIf I could fall into the skyDo you think time would pass me by?‘Cause you know I’d walk a thousand milesIf I could just see you tonightAnd I, I don’t wanna let you knowI, I drown in your memoryI, I don’t wanna let this goI, I don’tMaking my way downtownWalking fast, faces pass and I’m homeboundStaring blankly ahead, just making my wayMaking a way through the crowdAnd I still need youAnd I still miss youAnd now I wonderIf I could fall into the skyDo you think time would pass us by?‘Cause you know I’d walk a thousand milesIf I could just see you, oh, ohIf I could fall into the skyDo you think time would pass me by?‘Cause you know I’d walk a thousand milesIf I could just see youIf I could just hold you tonightShow LyricsThis has been a favorite song of mine since I was in middle school, it so perfectly captures the weightless, exhilerating feeling of being in love.\r\nOwMm, yeahI used to think maybe you loved me, now, baby, I’m sureAnd I just can’t wait till the day when you knock on my doorNow every time I go for the mailbox, gotta hold myself down‘Cause I just can’t wait till you write me you’re coming aroundNow I’m walking on sunshine, whoaI’m walking on sunshine, whoaI’m walking on sunshine, whoaAnd don’t it feel goodHey, all right nowAnd don’t it feel goodHey, yeahI used to think maybe you loved me, now I know that it’s trueAnd I don’t want to spend my whole life just a-waiting for youNow, I don’t want you back for the weekend, not back for a day, no, no, noI said, baby, I just want you back, and I want you to stayOh, yeah, now I’m walking on sunshine, whoaI’m walking on sunshine, whoaI’m walking on sunshine, whoaAnd don’t it feel goodHey, all right nowAnd don’t it feel goodYeah, oh, yeah, nowAnd don’t it feel goodWalking on sunshineWalking on sunshineI feel alive, I feel the love, I feel the love that’s really realI feel alive, I feel the love, I feel the love that’s really realI’m on sunshine, baby, ohOh, yeah, I’m on sunshine, baby Oh, I’m walking on sunshine, whoaI’m walking on sunshine, whoaI’m walking on sunshine, whoaAnd don’t it feel goodHey, all right nowAnd don’t it feel goodI’ll say it, I’ll say it, I’ll say it again nowAnd don’t it feel goodHey, yeah nowAnd don’t it feel goodNow don’t it, don’t it, don’t it, don’t it, don’t it, don’t itAnd don’t it feel goodI’ll say it, I’ll say it, I’ll say it again nowAnd don’t it feel goodNow don’t it, don’t it, don’t it, don’t it, don’t it, don’t itAnd don’t it feel goodNow tell me, tell me, tell me again nowAnd don’t it feel goodOh, yeah, nowAnd don’t it feel goodOh, don’t it feel good, don’t it feel goodNow don’t it feel goodOh, yeah, oh, yeah, oh, yeahAnd don’t it feel goodOh, yeah, yeah, yeah, oh, yeah, oh, yeahAnd don’t it feel goodShow LyricsThis song always gets me up on my feet and into the mood to move and dance. The music video for this song is sorta creepy-stalky in a cute perky way… but the lyrics of the song tell the real story. Spend every day rekindling your love and making it always fresh and new.  Love is never meant to tarnish.\r\nMMMM better…MMMM better…\r\nAbsolutely no one that knows me better\r\nNo one that can make me feel sooo goooood\r\nHow did we stay so long together?\r\nWhen everybody, everybody said we never would\r\nAnd just when I, I start to think they’re right\r\nThat love has died…[Chorus:]There you go making my heart beat again,Heart beat again,Heart beat againThere you go making me feel like a kidWon’t you do it and do it one time?There you go pulling me right back in,Right back in,Right back inAnd I know-oo I’m never letting this go-oooI’m stuck on youWhutooo whutoooStuck like glueYou and me baby we’re stuck like glueWhutooo whutoooStuck like glueYou and me baby we’re stuck like glueSome days I don’t feel like tryingSome days you know I wanna just give upWhen it doesn’t matter who’s right, fight about it all nightHad enoughYou give me that look“I’m sorry baby let’s make up”You do that thing that makes me laughAnd just like that…[Chorus:]There you go making my heart beat again,Heart beat again,Heart beat againThere you go making me feel like a kidWon’t you do it and do it one timeThere you go pulling me right back in,Right back in,Right back inAnd I know-oo I’m never letting this go-oooI’m stuck on youWhutooo whutoooStuck like glueYou and me baby we’re stuck like glueWhutooo whutoooStuck like glueYou and me baby were stuck like glueWhutooo WhutooYou almost stay out, too stuck together from the ATLWhutooo WhutooFeeling kinda sick?Just a spoon full of sugar make it better real quickI sayWhutooo WhutooWhatcha gonna do with that?Whutooo WhutooCome on over here with thatSugar sticky sweet stuffCome on give me that stuffEverybody wants someMelodies that get stuckUp in your headWhutooo whutoooUp in your headWhutooo whutoooUp in your headWhutooo whutoooUp in your headWhutooo whutoooWhuthoo whutoooStuck like glueYou and me together, say, it’s all I wanna doI said[Chorus:]There you go making my heart beat again,Heart beat again,Heart beat againThere you go making me feel like a kidWon’t you do it and do it one timeThere you go pulling me right back in,Right back in,Right back inAnd I know-oo I’m never letting this go-oooThere you go making my heart beat again,Heart beat again,Heart beat againThere you go making me feel like a kidWon’t you do it and do it one timeThere you go pulling me right back in,Right back in,Right back inAnd I know-oo I’m never letting this go-oooI’m stuck on youWhutooo whutoooStuck like glueYou and me baby we’re stuck like glueWhutooo whutoooStuck like glueYou and me baby were stuck like glueWhutooo whutoooStuck like glueYou and me baby we’re stuck like glueShow LyricsThis is one of my all-time favorite songs, it energizes me and makes me super happy.\r\nHey!\r\nUh huh\r\nHey!\r\nUh huhWhat I like about youYou hold me tightTell me I’m the only oneWanna come over tonight?YeahKeep on whispering in my earTell me all the things that I wanna hear‘Cause that’s true (That’s what I like)That’s what I like about you (That’s what I like)What I like about youYou really know how to danceWhen you go up, down, jump aroundThinking ’bout true romanceYeahKeep on whispering in my earTell me all the things that I wanna hear‘Cause that’s true (That’s what I like about you)That’s what I like about you (That’s what I like about you)That’s what I like about you (That’s what I like about you)That’s what I like about you (That’s what I like)Wow!Hey!What I like about youYou keep me warm at nightNever wanna let you goKnow you make me feel all rightYeahKeep on whispering in my earA-tell me all the things that I wanna hear‘Cause it’s true (That’s what I like about you)That’s what I like about you (That’s what I like about you)That’s what I like about you (That’s what I like about you)That’s what I like about you (That’s what I like about you)That’s what I like about you (That’s what I like)That’s what I like about you (That’s what I like)That’s what I like about you (That’s what I like)That’s what I like about you (That’s what I like about you)Hey!Uh huhHey, hey, hey, hey!Uh huh, brrHey!Uh huhHey!Show LyricsIf you love somebodyBetter tell them while they’re here ’causeThey may just run away from youDon’t hesitate to tell everyone you love how you feel about them and why.  Life is too short to leave anything out!\r\nIf you love somebody\r\nBetter tell them while they’re here ’cause\r\nThey may just run away from youYou’ll never know quite when, wellThen again it just depends onHow long of time is left for youI’ve had the highest mountainsI’ve had the deepest riversYou can have it all but life keeps movingNow take it in but don’t look down‘Cause I’m on top of the world, ‘ayI’m on top of the world, ‘ayWaiting on this for a while nowPaying my dues to the dirtI’ve been waiting to smile, ‘ayBeen holding it in for a while, ‘ayTake you with me if I canBeen dreaming of this since a childI’m on top of the world.I’ve tried to cut these cornersTry to take the easy way outI kept on falling short of somethingI coulda gave up then butThen again I couldn’t have ’causeI’ve traveled all this way for somethingNow take it in but don’t look down‘Cause I’m on top of the world, ‘ayI’m on top of the world, ‘ayWaiting on this for a while nowPaying my dues to the dirtI’ve been waiting to smile, ‘ayBeen holding it in for a while, ‘ayTake it with me if I canBeen dreaming of this since a childI’m on top of the world.‘Cause I’m on top of the world, ‘ayI’m on top of the world, ‘ayWaiting on this for a while nowPaying my dues to the dirtI’ve been waiting to smile, ‘ayBeen holding it in for a while, ‘ayTake it with me if I canBeen dreaming of this since a childAnd I know it’s hard when you’re falling downAnd it’s a long way up when you hit the groundGet up now, get up, get up now. x2Show Lyrics\r\nYo soy uno de esos amantes\r\nTan elegante como los de antes\r\nQue siempre llevan guantesEntre semana voy deportivoPero el domingo me pongo muy finoCon mi chaqué de linoY voy buscando por los balconesBellas julietas para mis cancionesY hacerles los honoresY siempre estoy rompiendo mi vozCantando coplas bajo tu ventana, amorSal ya, que este trovadorSe está asando de calorSoy un educado caballeroBello, cortés y amable compañeroUn codiciado solteroY como no tengo complejosMe miro siempre en todos los espejosAntes de echar los tejosSi alguna vez cometo erroresPa’ que no llores pido mil perdonesCon un millón de floresY siempre estoy rompiendo mi vozCantando coplas bajo tu ventana, amorSal ya, que este trovadorSe está asando de calorYo soy uno de esos amantesYo soy uno de esos amantesY siempre estoy rompiendo mi amorCantando coplas bajo tu ventana, amorSal ya, que este trovadorSe está asando de calorYo soy uno de esos amantesShow LyricsThis is the most amazing acoustic cover of one of my favorite songs by The Cars. \r\nI don’t mind you comin’ here\r\nWastin’ all my time\r\n‘Cause when you’re standin’ oh-so near\r\nI kinda lose my mindIt’s not the perfume that you wearIt’s not the ribbons in your hairI don’t mind you comin’ hereAnd wastin’ all my timeI don’t mind you hangin’ outAnd talkin’ in your sleepIt doesn’t matter where you’ve beenAs long as it was deep, yeahYou always knew to wear it wellYou look so fancy, I can tellAnd I don’t mind you hangin’ outAnd talkin’ in your sleepI guess you’re just what I needed (Just what I needed)I needed someone to feedI guess you’re just what I needed (Just what I needed)I needed someone to bleedI don’t mind you comin’ hereAnd wastin’ all my time, time‘Cause when you’re standin’ oh-so nearI kinda lose my mind, yeahIt’s not the perfume that you wearIt’s not the ribbons in your hairI don’t mind you comin’ hereAnd wastin’ all my timeI guess you’re just what I needed (Just what I needed)I needed someone to feedI guess you’re just what I needed (Just what I needed)I needed someone to bleedI guess you’re just what I needed (Just what I needed)I needed someone to feedI guess you’re just what I needed (Just what I needed)I needed someone to bleedYeah, yeah, so bleed me(You’re just what I needed)(You’re just what I needed)(You’re just what I needed)Yeah, yeah yeahShow LyricsIris by Goo Goo Dolls\r\nAnd I’d give up forever to touch you\r\n‘Cause I know that you feel me somehow\r\nYou’re the closest to heaven that I’ll ever be\r\nAnd I don’t want to go home right now\r\nAnd all I can taste is this moment\r\nAnd all I can breathe is your life\r\nAnd sooner or later it’s over\r\nI just don’t want to miss you tonightAnd I don’t want the world to see me‘Cause I don’t think that they’d understandWhen everything’s made to be brokenI just want you to know who I amAnd you can’t fight the tears that ain’t comingOr the moment of truth in your liesWhen everything feels like the moviesYeah, you bleed just to know you’re aliveAnd I don’t want the world to see me‘Cause I don’t think that they’d understandWhen everything’s made to be brokenI just want you to know who I amAnd I don’t want the world to see me‘Cause I don’t think that they’d understandWhen everything’s made to be brokenI just want you to know who I amAnd I don’t want the world to see me‘Cause I don’t think that they’d understandWhen everything’s made to be brokenI just want you to know who I amI just want you to know who I amI just want you to know who I amI just want you to know who I amShow LyricsOne of my prized possessions as a child was a little foldable, portable turntable set and one of my favorite records was a Bobby Goldsboro record.  Songs like Voodoo Woman, Watching Bobby Grow, See The Funny Little Clown, and Little Things were my favorites.  My other favorite records were by Roger Miller and Jim Croce.  I would sit and listen to them over and over again.Another song about keeping love fresh by never forgetting the little things!Little things that you do make me glad I’m in love with youLittle things that you say make me glad that I feel this wayThe way you smile, the way you hold my handAnd when I’m down you always understandYou know I love thoseLittle things in my ear that you say when there’s no one nearLittle things that you do let me know that your love is trueWhen we walk, you like to hold my handAnd when we talk you tell me I’m your manYou know I love thoseLittle things that I hear, the little things you whisper in my earI know there ain’t nobody else like youNo one could do the little things you do-oohLittle things that you do make me glad I’m in love with youLittle things that you say make me glad that I feel this wayWhen we walk, you like to hold my handAnd when we talk you tell me I’m your manYou know I love thoseLittle things that I hear, the little things you whisper in my earI know there ain’t nobody else like youNo one could do the little things you do-oohShow LyricsAnother sweet cover of one of the best Bee Gees songs.\r\nI know your eyes in the morning sun\r\nI feel you touch me in the pouring rain\r\nAnd the moment that you wander far from me\r\nI wanna feel you in my arms againAnd you come to me on a summer breezeKeep me warm in your loveThen you softly leaveAnd it’s me you need to showHow deep is your love?How deep is your love?How deep is your love?I really mean to learn‘Cause we’re living in a world of foolsBreakin’ us downWhen they all should let us beWe belong to you and meI believe in youYou know the door to my very soulYou’re the light in my deepest, darkest hourYou’re my saviour when I fallAnd you may not think I care for youWhen you know down insideThat I really doAnd it’s me you need to showHow deep is your love?How deep is your loveHow deep is your loveI really mean to learn‘Cause we’re living in a world of foolsBreakin’ us downWhen they all should let us beWe belong to you and meYou might also likeDa-da-da-da-daNa-na-na na-na-na-naNa-na-na-na-na-na-naNa-na-na-na-na-na-naAnd you come to me on a summer breezeKeep me warm in your loveThen you softly leaveAnd it’s me you need to showHow deep is your love?How deep is your loveHow deep is your loveI really mean to learn‘Cause we’re living in a world of foolsBreakin’ us downWhen they all should let us beWe belong to you and meHow deep is your loveHow deep is your loveI really mean to learn‘Cause we’re living in a world of foolsBreakin’ us downWhen they all should let us beWe belong to you and meHow deep is your loveHow deep is your loveI really mean to learn‘Cause we’re living in a world of foolsBreakin’ us downWhen they all should let us beWe belong to you and meShow LyricsGypsy by Suzanne VegaSuzanne Vega wrote this song at the age of 16 for a fellow camp counselor and released it on her second album, Solitude Standing. I think the first time I ever heard it, it was my favorite song of all time and still might be.  Songs like this formed a kind of romantic sweetness in my little mushy teenage brain.\r\nYou come from far away\r\nWith pictures in your eyes\r\nOf coffee shops and morning streets\r\nIn the blue and silent sunrise\r\nBut night is the cathedral\r\nWhere we recognized the sign\r\nWe strangers know each other now\r\nAs part of the whole designOh, hold me like a babyThat will not fall asleepCurl me up inside youAnd let me hear you through the heatYou are the jester of this courtyardWith a smile like a girl’sDistracted by the womenWith the dimples and the curlsBy the pretty and the mischievousBy the timid and the blessedBy the blowing skirts of ladiesWho promise to gather you to their breastOh, hold me like a babyThat will not fall asleepCurl me up inside youAnd let me hear you through the heatYou have hands of raining waterAnd that earring in your earThe wisdom on your faceDenies the number of your yearsWith the fingers of the potterAnd the laughing tale of the foolThe arranger of disorderWith your strange and simple rulesYes now I’ve met me another spinnerOf strange and gauzy threadsWith a long and slender bodyAnd a bump upon the headOh, hold me like a babyThat will not fall asleepCurl me up inside youAnd let me hear you through the heatWith a long and slender bodyAnd the sweetest softest handsAnd we’ll blow away forever soonAnd go on to different landsAnd please do not ever look for meBut with me you will stayAnd you will hear yourself in songBlowing by one dayBut now hold me like a babyThat will not fall asleepCurl me up inside youAnd let me hear you through the heatShow LyricsAnother of my favorites by the Asylum Street Spankers (lyrics unavailable).Another song I spent the 80s listening to again and again. It encouraged me to be patient and not to rush too quickly into love but instead to wait for the right person to come along.\r\nSo long\r\nI’ve been looking too hard, I’ve been waiting too long\r\nSometimes I don’t know what I will find\r\nI only know it’s a matter of time\r\nWhen you love someone\r\nWhen you love someoneIt feels so right, so warm and trueI need to know if you feel it tooMaybe I’m wrongWon’t you tell me if I’m coming on too strong?This heart of mine has been hurt beforeThis time I wanna be sureI’ve been waiting for a girl like youTo come into my lifeI’ve been waiting for a girl like you (waiting for a love)And a love that will surviveI’ve been waiting (I’ve been waiting) for someone newTo make me feel aliveYeah, waiting for a girl like you (waiting for a girl)To come into my lifeYou’re so goodWhen we make love, it’s understoodIt’s more than a touch or a word we sayOnly in dreams could it be this wayWhen you love someoneYeah, really love someoneNow, I know it’s rightFrom the moment I wake up till deep in the nightThere’s nowhere on earth that I’d rather beThan holding you tenderlyI’ve been waiting for a girl like youTo come into my lifeI’ve been waiting for a girl like you (waiting for a love)For a love that will surviveI’ve been waiting (I’ve been waiting) for someone newTo make me feel aliveYeah, waiting (waiting) for a girl like you (waiting for a girl)To come into my life(Ah)(Ah)I’ve been waiting (Ah)Waiting for you(Ah) Ooh, I’ve been waiting(Waiting) I’ve been waiting, yeah(I’ve been waiting for a girl like you)(I’ve been waiting) Won’t you come into my life?My lifeSo long (Waiting for a girl like you)Show LyricsAll I Want by Toad The Wet Sprocket\r\nNothing’s so loud\r\nAs hearing when we lie\r\nThe truth is not kind\r\nAnd you’ve said neither am I\r\nAnd the air outside so soft\r\nIs saying everything, everythingAll I want is to feel this wayTo be this close, to feel the sameAll I want is to feel this wayThe evening speaks, I feel it sayNothing’s so coldAs closing the heart when all we needIs to free the soulBut we wouldn’t be that brave I knowAnd the air outside so softConfessing everything, everythingAll I want is to feel this wayTo be this close, to feel the sameAll I want is to feel this wayThe evening speaks, I feel it sayAnd it won’t matter nowWhatever happens will beThough the air speaks of all we’ll never beIt won’t trouble meAll I want is to feel this wayTo be this close, to feel the sameAll I want is to feel this wayThe evening speaks, I feel it sayIt feels so close (All I want is to feel this way)Let it take me in (To be this close, to feel the same)Let it hold me so (All I want is to feel this way)I can feel it say (The evening speaks, I feel it say)I can’t begin to explain how deeply I’ve loved a-ha since the first time I heard this song on the radio.  I still think it’s the best music video ever made.  I shamelessly admit to owning every single a-ha album and spending a large percentage of my free time enjoying every one of the songs.  It just doesn’t get any better than this.\r\nUh-huh-huh, doo-doo\r\nBah bah bah-ah-ahTalking away, ahNo, I don’t know what I’m to sayI’ll say it anywayToday is another day to find youShying awayOh, I’ll be coming for your love, okay?Take on me (take on me)Take me on (take on me)I’ll be goneIn a day or twoSo needless to sayI’m odds and ends, but I’m meStumbling awaySlowly learning that life is okaySay after me“It’s no better to be safe than sorry”Take on me (take on me)Take me on (take on me)I’ll be goneIn a day or twoOh, the things that you sayYeah, is it life or just to playMy worries away?You’re all the things I’ve got to rememberYeah, you’re shying awayI’ll be coming for you anywayTake on me (take on me)Take me on (take on me)I’ll be goneIn a dayTake on me (take on me)Take me on (take on me)I’ll be gone (take on me)In a day (take me on)(Take on me)Take on me (take on me)Take me on (take on me)Take on meTake me onShow LyricsShow LyricsShow Lyrics\r\nI walk along the city streets you used to walk along with me\r\nAnd every step I take reminds me of just how\r\nWe used to beWell, how can I forget you girlWhen there is always something there to remind me?Always something there to remind meAs shadows fall, I pass a small cafe where we would dance at nightAnd I can’t help recallingHow it felt to kiss and hold you tightWell, how can I forget you girlWhen there is always something there to remind me?Always something there to remind meI was born to love herAnd I will never be freeYou’ll always be a part of meOh whoa whoa whoaIf you should find you miss the sweet and tender love we used to shareJust come back to the places where we used to goAnd I’ll be thereWell, how can I forget you girlWhen there is always something there to remind me?Always something there to remind meI was born to love herAnd I will never be freeYou’ll always be a part of me‘Cause there is always something there to remind meAlways something there to remind meAlways something there to remind meAlways something there to remind meAlways something there to remind meAlways something there to remind meAlways something there to remind meAlways something there to remind meAlways something there to remind meShow LyricsI realize this song is about a stalker, and it’s not a love song.  I wouldn’t play it at my wedding, but I still love the song so here it is.\r\nEvery breath you take\r\nAnd every move you make\r\nEvery bond you break, every step you take\r\nI’ll be watching youEvery single dayAnd every word you sayEvery game you play, every night you stayI’ll be watching youOh, can’t you seeYou belong to me?How my poor heart achesWith every step you takeEvery move you makeEvery vow you breakEvery smile you fake, every claim you stakeI’ll be watching youSince you’ve gone, I’ve been lost without a traceI dream at night, I can only see your faceI look around, but it’s you I can’t replaceI feel so cold and I long for your embraceI keep crying baby, baby, pleaseOh, can’t you seeYou belong to me?How my poor heart achesWith every step you takeEvery move you makeAnd every vow you breakEvery smile you fake, every claim you stakeI’ll be watching youEvery move you make, every step you takeI’ll be watching youI’ll be watching you(Every breath you take, every move you make)(Every bond you break, every step you take)I’ll be watching you(Every single day, every word you say)(Every game you play, every night you stay)I’ll be watching you(Every move you make, every vow you break)(Every smile you fake, every claim you stake)I’ll be watching you(Every single day, every word you say)(Every game you play, every night you stay)I’ll be watching you(Every breath you take, every move you make)(Every bond you break, every step you take)I’ll be watching you(Every single day, every word you say)(Every game you play, every night you stay)I’ll be watching you(Every move you make, every vow you break)(Every smile you fake, every claim you stake)I’ll be watching you(Every single day, every word you say)(Every game you play, every night you stay)I’ll be watching youShow LyricsI’ve loved this song for a long time since it was the only hit song by an American Indian band I had ever heard of.  I loved the incorporation of native rhythms and vocalizations in a rock song!  I was thrilled when it appeared on the Guardians of the Galaxysoundtrack, with such a compelling, diverse set of songs included in the film.  So much love!\r\nHail (hail)\r\nWhat’s the matter with your head, yeah\r\nHail (hail)\r\nWhat’s the matter with your mind\r\nAnd your sign an-a, oh-oh-oh\r\nHail (hail)\r\nNothin’ the matter with your head\r\nBaby find it, come on and find it\r\nHail, with it baby\r\n‘Cause you’re fine\r\nAnd you’re mine, and you look so divineCome and get your loveCome and get your loveCome and get your loveCome and get your loveHail (hail)What’s the matter with you feel rightDon’t you feel right babyHail, oh yeahGet it from the main vine, all rightI said-a find it, find itGo on and love it if you like it, yeahHail (hail)It’s your business if you want some, take someGet it together babyCome and get your loveCome and get your loveCome and get your loveCome and get your loveCome and get your loveCome and get your loveCome and get your love, nowCome and get your loveCome and get your loveCome and get your love, nowCome and get your loveCome and get your loveCome and get your love, nowCome and get your loveCome and get your loveCome and get your loveCome and get your loveHail (hail)What’s the matter with you feel rightDon’t you feel right babyHail, oh yeahGet it from the main vine, all rightCome and get your loveCome and get your loveCome and get your loveCome and get your loveShow LyricsYou can’t have a bunch of love songs without this one included. Props to Lilo & Stitch for a healthy dose of Elvis, including this great song.\r\nLord Almighty\r\nI feel my temperature rising\r\nHigher higher\r\nIt’s burning through to my soul\r\nGirl, girl, girl, girl\r\nYou’re gonna set me on fire\r\nMy brain is flaming\r\nI don’t know which way to goYour kisses lift me higherLike a sweet song of a choirYou light my morning skyWith burning loveOoh, ooh, oohI feel my temperature risingHelp me, I’m flamingI must be a hundred and nineBurning, burning, burningAnd nothing can cool meI just might turn into smokeBut I feel fine‘Cause your kisses lift me higherLike a sweet song of a choirAnd you light my morning skyWith burning loveIt’s coming closerThe flames are now licking my bodyWon’t you help meI feel like I’m slipping awayIt’s hard to breatheAnd my chest is a-heavingLord, have mercyI’m burning a hole where I layYour kisses lift me higherLike the sweet song of a choirYou light my morning skyWith burning loveWith burning love(Ah, ah, burning love)I’m just a hunk, a hunk of burning loveJust a hunk, a hunk of burning loveJust a hunk, a hunk of burning loveJust a hunk, a hunk of burning loveJust a hunk, a hunk of burning loveJust a hunk, a hunk of burning loveJust a hunk, a hunk of burning loveJust a hunk, a hunk of burning loveJust a hunk, a hunk of burning loveJust a hunk, a hunk of burning loveJust a hunk, a hunk of burning loveShow Lyrics\r\nThe club isn’t the best place to find a lover\r\nSo the bar is where I go\r\nMe and my friends at the table doing shots\r\nDrinking fast and then we talk slowYou come over and start up a conversation with just meAnd trust me I’ll give it a chance nowTake my hand, stop, put van the man on the jukeboxAnd then we start to danceAnd now I’m singing likeGirl you know I want your loveYour love was handmade for somebody like meCome on now follow my leadI may be crazy, don’t mind meSay boy, let’s not talk too muchGrab on my waist and put that body on meCome on now follow my leadCome, come on now follow my leadI’m in love with the shape of youWe push and pull like a magnet doAlthough my heart is falling tooI’m in love with your bodyLast night you were in my roomAnd now my bed sheets smell like youEvery day discovering something brand newWell I’m in love with your body(Oh I, oh I, oh I, oh I)I’m in love with your body(Oh I, oh I, oh I, oh I)I’m in love with your body(Oh I, oh I, oh I, oh I)I’m in love with your bodyEvery day discovering something brand newI’m in love with the shape of youOne week in we let the story beginWe’re going out on our first dateYou and me are thrifty, so go all you can eatFill up your bag and I fill up a plateWe talk for hours and hours about the sweet and the sourAnd how your family is doing okayLeave and get in a taxi, then kiss in the backseatTell the driver make the radio playAnd I’m singing likeGirl, you know I want your loveYour love was handmade for somebody like meCome on now follow my leadI may be crazy, don’t mind meSay boy, let’s not talk too muchGrab on my waist and put that body on meCome on now follow my leadCome, come on now follow my leadI’m in love with the shape of youWe push and pull like a magnet doAlthough my heart is falling tooI’m in love with your bodyLast night you were in my roomAnd now my bed sheets smell like youEvery day discovering something brand newWell I’m in love with your body(Oh I, oh I, oh I, oh I)I’m in love with your body(Oh I, oh I, oh I, oh I)I’m in love with your body(Oh I, oh I, oh I, oh I)I’m in love with your bodyEvery day discovering something brand newI’m in love with the shape of youCome on be my baby, come onCome on be my baby, come onCome on be my baby, come onCome on be my baby, come onCome on be my baby, come onCome on be my baby, come onCome on be my baby, come onCome on be my baby, come onI’m in love with the shape of youWe push and pull like a magnet doAlthough my heart is falling tooI’m in love with your bodyLast night you were in my roomAnd now my bedsheets smell like youEvery day discovering something brand newI’m in love with your body(Come on be my baby, come on)(Come on be my baby, come on)I’m in love with your body(Come on be my baby, come on)(Come on be my baby, come on)I’m in love with your body(Come on be my baby, come on)(Come on be my baby, come on)I’m in love with your bodyEvery day discovering something brand newI’m in love with the shape of youShow Lyrics\r\nSweet pea\r\nApple of my eye\r\nDon’t know when and I don’t know why\r\nYou’re the only reason I keep on coming homeSweet peaWhat’s all this aboutDon’t get your way all you do is fuss and poutYou’re the only reason I keep on coming homeI’m like the Rock of GibraltarI always seem to falterAnd the words just get in the wayOh I know I’m gonna crumbleI’m trying to stay humbleBut I never think before I saySweet peaKeeper of my soulI know sometimes I’m out of controlYou’re the only reason I keep on comingYou’re the only reason I keep on coming yeahYou’re the only reason I keep on coming homeShow Lyrics\r\nI gave you all the love I got\r\nI gave you more than I could give\r\nI gave you loveI gave you all that I have insideAnd you took my loveYou took my loveDidn’t I tell youWhat I believeDid somebody say thatA love like that won’t lastDidn’t I give youAll that I’ve got to give, babyI gave you all the love I gotI gave you more than I could giveI gave you loveI gave you all that I have insideAnd you took my loveYou took my loveI keep cryingI keep trying for youThere’s nothing like you and I, babyThis is no ordinary loveNo ordinary loveThis is no ordinary loveNo ordinary loveWhen you came my wayYou brightened every dayWith your sweet smileDidn’t I tell youWhat I believeDid somebody say thatA love like that won’t lastDidn’t I give youAll that I’ve got to give, babyThis is no ordinary loveNo ordinary loveThis is no ordinary loveNo ordinary loveI keep cryingI keep trying for youThere’s nothing like you and I, babyThis is no ordinary loveNo ordinary loveThis is no ordinary loveNo ordinary loveKeep trying for youKeep crying for youKeep flying for youKeep flying and I’m fallingAnd I’m fallingKeep trying for youKeep crying for youKeep flying for youKeep flying for you and I’m fallingAnd I’m fallingI keep trying for youShow LyricsCreep by RadioheadOkay, so it’s another great stalker song.\r\nWhen you were here before\r\nCouldn’t look you in the eye\r\nYou’re just like an angel\r\nYour skin makes me cryYou float like a featherIn a beautiful worldI wish I was specialYou’re so fucking specialBut I’m a creep, I’m a weirdoWhat the hell am I doing here?I don’t belong hereI don’t care if it hurtsI want to have controlI want a perfect bodyI want a perfect soulI want you to noticeWhen I’m not aroundYou’re so fucking specialI wish I was specialBut I’m a creep, I’m a weirdoWhat the hell am I doing here?I don’t belong hereShe’s running out…Whatever makes you happyWhatever you wantYou’re so fucking specialI wish I was specialBut I’m a creep, I’m weirdoWhat the hell am I doing here?I don’t belong hereI don’t belong hereShow LyricsFidelity by Regina Spektor\r\nShake it upI never loved nobody fullyAlways one foot on the groundAnd by protecting my heart trulyI got lost in the soundsI hear in my mind all of these voicesI hear in my mind all of these wordsI hear in my mind all of this musicAnd it breaks my heartAnd it breaks my heartAnd it breaks my ha-ah-ah, ah-ah-ah, ah-ah-ah, ah-ah-ah-aartAnd it breaks my ha-ah-ah, ah-ah-ah, ah-ah-ah, ah-ah-ah-aartSuppose I never, ever met youSuppose we never fell in loveSuppose I never ever let youKiss me so sweet and so softSuppose I never, ever saw youSuppose we never, ever calledSuppose I kept on singin’ love songsJust to break my own fallJust to break my fa-ah-ah, ah-ah-ah, ah-ah-ah, ah-ah-ah-aallJust to break my fa-ah-ah, ah-ah-ah, ah-ah-ah, ah-ah-ah-aallJust to break my fa-ah-ah, ah-ah-ah, ah-ah-ah, ah-ah-ah-aallBreak my fallBreak my fallAll my friends sayThat of course it’s gonna get betterGonna get betterBetter, better, better, betterBetter, better, betterI never loved nobody fullyAlways one foot on the groundAnd by protecting my heart trulyI got lost in the soundsI hear in my mind all of these voicesI hear in my mind all of these wordsI hear in my mind all of this musicAnd it breaks my heartAnd it breaks my heartI hear in my mind all of these voicesI hear in my mind all of these wordsI hear in my mind all of this musicAnd it breaks my heartAnd it breaks my heartIt breaks my ha-ah-ah, ah-ah-ah, ah-ah-ah, ah-ah-ah-aartAnd it breaks my ha, ah, ah, ah, artAnd it breaks my ha-ah-ah, ah-ah-ah, ah-ah-ah, ah-ah-ah-aartAnd it breaks my heartBreaks my heartAnd it breaks my heartIt breaks my heartAnd it breaks my heartAnd it breaks my heartShow LyricsWhen I started high school and moved to Virginia, our stuff hadn’t arrived at the house yet so I was sleeping on the floor with only a few prized possessions in my room, and I was listening to my Chris de Burgh album The Getaway.  I used to love listening to this song over and over, wondering if love was like this song.  This song was a formative event for me and it’s the essence of how I love.\r\nWhen I wake up in the morning, she is there\r\nWith her sleepy smile and a long night of windy hair\r\nWhen I hold her close beside me, well it feels so good\r\nThat I’d like to stay here all day long\r\nIf there’s a way that I couldAnd when we go downstairs and start off onto the dayJust one more cup of coffee and I’m on my wayWe may not have perfection, but we’re half way thereAnd I know it’s sentimental, but I just wanted to sayThat all the love I have inside me, is for youAll the love I have inside me, is for youAll the love I have inside me, is for youAnd when I’ve had a heavy day and I’m going homeShe gives me time if she sees I want to be aloneAh but when the evening’s over and we go to bedHere comes that same old feeling, it’s like a song in my headWell all the love I have inside me, is for youAll the love I have inside me, is for youAll the love I have inside me, is for youHere’s my love song to you, you….Show LyricsOne of the sweetest love songs ever written!\r\nIf I could reach the stars I’d pull one down for you\r\nShine it on my heart so you could see the truth\r\nThat this love I have inside is everything it seems\r\nBut for now I find it’s only in my dreamsThat I can change the worldI would be the sunlight in your universeYou would think my love was really something goodBaby, if I could, change the worldIf I could be king, even for a dayI’d take you as my queen, I’d have it no other wayAnd our love would rule this kingdom we have madeTill then I’ll be a fool, wishin’ for the dayThat I can change the worldI would be the sunlight in your universeYou would think my love was really something goodBaby, if I could change the worldBaby, if I could change the worldI could change the worldI would be the sunlight in your universeYou would think my love was really something goodBaby, if I could change the worldBaby, if I could change the worldBaby, if I could change the worldShow Lyrics\r\nLoving can hurt, loving can hurt sometimes\r\nBut it’s the only thing that I know\r\nWhen it gets hard, you know it can get hard sometimes\r\nIt is the only thing that makes us feel aliveWe keep this love in a photographWe made these memories for ourselvesWhere our eyes are never closingHearts are never brokenAnd time’s forever frozen, stillSo you can keep meInside the pocket of your ripped jeansHolding me closer ’til our eyes meetYou won’t ever be alone, wait for me to come homeLoving can heal, loving can mend your soulAnd it’s the only thing that I know, knowI swear it will get easier, remember that with every piece of yaAnd it’s the only thing we take with us when we dieWe keep this love in a photographWe made these memories for ourselvesWhere our eyes are never closingHearts were never brokenAnd time’s forever frozen, stillSo you can keep meInside the pocket of your ripped jeansHolding me closer ’til our eyes meetYou won’t ever be aloneAnd if you hurt me, well that’s okay, babyOnly words bleed inside these pages, you just hold meAnd I won’t ever let you goWait for me to come homeWait for me to come homeWait for me to come homeWait for me to come homeOh, you can fit meInside the necklace you got when you were 16Next to your heartbeat where I should beKeep it deep within your soulAnd if you hurt me, well that’s okay, babyOnly words bleed inside these pagesYou just hold meAnd I won’t ever let you goWhen I’m away, I will remember how you kissed meUnder the lamppost back on Sixth streetHearing you whisper through the phone“Wait for me to come home”Show LyricsSuggested by my friend Chelsea, this beautiful song is made more bittersweet knowing that Nightbirde fought a protracted battle with cancer and moved so many people with her music during her lifetime.\r\nI moved to California in the summer time\r\nI changed my name thinking that it would change my mind\r\nI thought that all my problems they would stay behind\r\nI was a stick of dynamite and it was just a matter of time, yeah\r\nOh dang, oh my, now I can’t hide\r\nSaid I knew myself but I guess I lied\r\nIt’s okay, it’s okay, it’s okay, it’s okay\r\nIf you’re lost, we’re all a little lost and it’s alright\r\nIt’s okay, it’s okay, it’s okay, it’s okay\r\nIf you’re lost, we’re all a little lost and it’s alright\r\nIt’s alright, it’s alright, it’s alright, it’s alright\r\nI wrote a hundred pages but I burned them all\r\n(Yeah, I burned them all)\r\nI drove through yellow lights and don’t look back at all\r\nI don’t look back at all\r\nYeah, you can call me reckless, I’m a cannonball (uh, I’m a cannonball)\r\nDon’t know why I take the tightrope and cry when I fall\r\nOh dang, oh my, now I can’t hide\r\nSaid I knew what I wanted but I guess I lied\r\nIt’s okay, it’s okay, it’s okay, it’s okay\r\nIf you’re lost, we’re all a little lost and it’s alright\r\nIt’s okay, it’s okay, it’s okay, it’s okay\r\nIf you’re lost, we’re all a little lost and it’s alright\r\nIt’s alright, it’s alright, it’s alright, it’s alright\r\nIt’s alright, it’s alright, it’s alright, it’s alright\r\nOh-oh-oh-oh, it’s alright\r\nOh-oh-oh-oh, it’s alright\r\nOh-oh-oh-oh, it’s alright\r\nOh-oh-oh-oh, it’s alright\r\nTo be lost sometimes\r\nIt’s okay, it’s okay, it’s okay, it’s okay\r\nIf you’re lost, we’re all a little lost and it’s alright\r\nIt’s okay, it’s okay, it’s okay, it’s okay\r\nIf you’re lost, we’re all a little lost and it’s alright\r\nIt’s okay, it’s okay, it’s okay, it’s okay\r\nIf you’re lost, we’re all a little lost and it’s alright\r\nIt’s okay, it’s okay, it’s okay, it’s okay\r\nIf you’re lost, we’re all a little lost and it’s alright\r\nIt’s okay, it’s okay, it’s okay, it’s okay\r\nIf you’re lost, we’re all a little lost and it’s alrightI feel like all playlists should end with a hymn. Through this cancer battle I’ve always felt loved and supported, always nearer to God, and often have thought of this song.  It was supposedly played by the brave members of the band on the Titanic as the ship was sinking, which is a sweet story but probably was not actually the case.  I like to think that it was, though.\r\nNearer, my God, to Thee\r\nNearer to Thee\r\nE’en though it be a cross\r\nThat raiseth meStill all my song shall beNearer, my God, to TheeNearer, my God, to TheeNearer to theeThen with my waking thoughtsBright with thy praiseOut of my stony griefsBethel I’ll raiseSo by my woes to beNearer, my God, to TheeNearer, my God, to TheeNearer to TheeOr if on joyful wingCleaving the skySun, moon, and stars forgotUpward I flyStill all my song shall beNearer, my God, to TheeNearer, my God, to TheeNearer to theeNearer to theeShow LyricsShow LyricsShow Lyrics",
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